Atonement
I just binged on carbs and sugar, prohibitted from my diet. I was eating gluten free this week until today. I have realized I cannot have trigger foods, I had a chocolate and thought that would be ok. But that lead to me eating 3 cookies and 10 salt crackers. I stuffed my face with an excess of 500 calories. I hate that I lost self control. I had been doing so well this week. I do not want to lose control. But I cant let this set me back, I feel sick and I need to embrace this feeling to know I cannot repeat my mistake again. It saddens me to see that over a year ago I set my mind to losing weight and even before that but failed to achieve it. Why do I have to be such a gluton. This needs to stop. But I need to continue on my fitness and on my diet. I will be 125 lbs again. I have disappointed myself so much, I will stand back up stronger than ever before now. Will not wallow on this mistake but move on and go greater and harder.