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Train Wreck
Somehow I always manage to do this;
I find someone that I can love with a love that is unmatched.
I forfeit my moral truths, my values, and I deny my inner knowledge;
Why listen to horrible whispers of a tragic end?
I love that person, and I love them with no regard for my own personal nightmare unfolding before my eyes.
I love in an attempt to gain that same love...
I have a problem accepting gifts because they make me feel guilty.
Do I honestly deserve gifts from the heart from anyone?
My own confusion and pain brought confusion and pain to all those I love... What have I become - or has this darkness always existed?
I feel as though I am some sort of curse, not just my pain, but my very existence.
I seemingly bring people some type of happiness.
Many people have told me in my short years that I radiate comfort, or release...
Days, weeks, months, or years later something horrible happens and anger and rage take over...
Beautiful and loving relationships reflecting a past unfortunate.
Memories that now burn me - Broken glass showering the floor like precious dreams once dreamt.
I lie awake at night, daring myself to dream.
Though behind these closed eyes I find no comfort, because I've brought this upon myself.
I am my own worst enemy.
Sorrow rips throughout my core, and on deaf ears all understanding is lost.
A repeated cycle that I've lived my entire life... Apparently a shadow... Just a passing shadow.
I'm nothing more than Shade.
I searched for the photo that stuck out to me... I like how the mirror is shattering at her fingertips...