confession

[morbidlunatic]

I've had a lot of time to think about my past, the things I've experienced, and the horrors I've endured.

I am proud to say that I am 20 years old, and I am thrilled to say that I plan to live a very long life. I am also proud to say that my life has been quite chaotic, and I only hope that the next 20 years are as eventful as the last. Yes, it's

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Dearest Michael...

[mjmjmj888]

In a perfect world...Life would be dull...
I was never manipulated or lied to or darkend... I only follow my heart...
It brings tears to my eyes to know you and I no longer will walk down this hallway together... I never forsaw this..but somewhere along the journey our paths devided....

My feelings have nothing to do with anyone other then myself...
I was and never will be manipulated by anyone other then Myself...

I opened my heart to you and mikee and the memories will be cherished there for eternity...
But you and I both know that this moment in our lives we do not see things eye too eye...
I love my friends...those inwhich you see anger and evil in... I see nothing but love and light and much peace in them.. the same I saw..{see} in you...

Michael.. This comment may bring you peace or it may bring you anger and betrayal...
I never betrayed you....
I hate sad and hurtful goodbyes...

I know one day this life time or the next we two shall find peace and light in each others embrace once again....But for now.. this letter as come to an end...
One day I hope you will except and embrace my goodbye...If not I understand...

with love and light blessed be...

~Mandi

Re: Dearest Michael...

[morbidlunatic]

Mandi - It's not the fact that you, Jesse, and Joe are friends that makes me feel betrayed - By all means, I hope your friendship with them is a wonderful experience for you. I hope that the three of you can find a lot of common ground, and that you love eachother like brother and sister... What I felt betrayal in is the fact that you disclosed personal information that I disclosed to you in private, and I meant for it to stay between us. I was told by someone who had absolutely nothing to do with the situation that YOU were speaking to Barry. This someone was able to tell me exactly what was said, and in the manner in which it was said in. I can't believe that such a beautiful person as you could ever be so cruel... To go behind my back and talk ill of the person I love, whom now has been ripped from my grasp and taken from me. I can't believe, after all the things that we discussed, that you could have done that.

I too am sorry that I have lost not only yours, but many of my friends love and respect. It hurts me far down deep to know that because I feel in-love with one person, I had to lose the majority of my friends. As a witch I realize that I will never see eye-to-eye 100% with anyone, I understand that reality is understood differently by every single person. As a witch, speaking to another witch, I find it hard to know that anyone of you could go behind my back, disclose information discussed in private, and abuse my name or my love's name. "An it harm none, do what ye will" - Remember?

LIGHT, LOVE, LAUGHTER, PEACE - REMEMBER?!

Don't you recall how conncected we are? Don't you recall the triangle, the triple 8, or our power together?! Don't you recall saying that you had only felt the connection you felt between us once before, and that was with Michael Sherburn?!

Do you not recall hearing what Jesse had to say to me that day in front of Books of Light, don't you recall saying that you, yourself, believed him to be very dark?! Do you not recall any of that?

If not, if you do not remember any of that, then yes honey, yes you have been manipulated. You told me that you disliked Barry and would never be near him. You told me that you felt the darkness in Jesse and would never be near him. You told me that you SAW MY WINGS, and that you loved being near the light and love that radiated from me... Yet, here you are, saying goodbye to my Light, to my Love, and to our powerful connection.

No - We do not see eye-to-eye... Seems as though I am the ONLY ONE who remembers what has truly happened, and what has truly taken place.

You said yourself that you believed Barry was doing evil against Michael. You also know that I never, not once, took one single step towards the darkness, that all I did was wish everyone LIGHT & LOVE!

Though, your words seem so riddled with confusion, and I doubt that you would remember any of that.

I'm sorry, Sweetie, but no matter how sweet and innocent you word it, you've been darkened and manipulated...

I hope you do live a happy life, and I hope you do find Light and Love in all your adventures.

May you go in peace.