To anyone who assumed the worst:
At first, I didn't think I should respond to this, but as you said, if it were important, people would call me, right? So I'm wondering, if I was doing something so clearly hurtful, why not tell me earlier? I had no idea anyone felt left behind, mainly because I do realize I've been secluded... from EVERYONE. It was my own doing, for the most part, but not to get away from anyone other than Anna. I'm sorry if there were casualities. I never meant for anyone to feel abandoned. So, if you're just being passive aggressive for guilts sake, there's not much point as I've been obsessing over it ever since I realized there was an issue. If I actually hurt you personally, why not talk to me before hand and prevent all this, rather than jumping to obnoxious conclusions? Also, I'm curious, did you honestly think I would have skipped out on Rachel or Claire or Squee or Jenny or anyone for no reason at all? I realize some of you have always had a funny thing about the Latham kids, most of which I knew before I ever met most of the people with issues, and believe me, they had once felt replaced too, but it really is ridiculous. The fact is, I haven't been seeing them either. I'd understand if all of these people ever called me, but you don't, and that's fine. It's always been okay because friends know we'll be there when we can be. None of us are great at contact, but without even knowing someone is hurt, how can it change? Anything I say now will look like an excuse and as for not feeling the need to talk online... I can't talk online every day or even rarely every week, and I piss people off when I steal his mother's computer to do this at all. Why is that so difficult to understand? Even though I feel I did owe you that, which I obviously do, it's hard to get to a computer. That is nothing against anyone. I also realize that you don't know what's going on, and that's fine. But please don't cheapen everything and think so very little of me. Don't think I'm replacing any of you when I don't even get a chance to see the people that live here outside of school. Summer will be easier, if you're willing to wait. I see the two people that come to Scott's house to see me because they live right by him. It's complicated right now and I'm sorry about that, but I don't need any of this bullshit to make it harder. Please, just be patient enough and don't assume the worst about me without knowing any of the facts. Rachel has every reason to be upset. A lot of you do. But please respect and care about me enough to realize that there could be something else, rather than assuming I'm a douche bag while saying you don't "blame" me. If you didn't blame me, you wouldn't have said any of that. Maybe eventually I'll explain, though by then you'll just think so little of me again and call it an excuse or whining like before. There's really no point in it anyway. The point in this is that I do care about all of you and I never meant to make you feel pushed away, even after all the times I'VE felt pushed away. I'm sure part of it was the need to protect someone you love from hurting, and that I understand, but never assume I have replaced you, forgotten you, or just ditched you at random. If any of you could ever think that without a benifit of a doubt, then you clearly don't love me or at least don't understand me.