OUR Future
Today I went out to protest again, this time not to gain votes, but to simply show my indignation at having my rights torn from me through false advertising, bigotry, and willful ignorance. In the town where I am, it is probably not the safest thing to go out and stand up for this issue, but to me it is no longer about protecting the rights of my friends or simple equality. Now I feel as though I am struggling to protect my own future. The future of M and I... to me I don't see the difference because we are each other's future. It's a strange mix of emotions, trying to stand out there knowing at any moment that somebody who is particularly... extreme - may snap on me.
Faggot, Queer, these are all insults that I have never heard directed at me until now. Those who know me know that I am not the most flamboyant character... it's just my nature, but it's appaling that there are so many people who will hurl these insults simply because they don't like what I stand for... truly bizarre. But I take heart because we also get support... today was a split second thing... it started out with a group of about 6 people, and grew with more supporters who saw us standing there and decided to come show their own support. We even got the news crew down, which was quite unexpected... they had not come down for the formal protests, but when we showed up for this one on a whim, they came down and interviewed the girl who put it together and took some footage. That makes me glad... to know that we are getting the attention on this issue that it deserves.
My life is no longer about having fun. It's not about trying to make friends with nice people in a search for someone who I think is right for me. Somehow I found someone who despite all the odds stacked against us, I KNOW that I love. I read somewhere that people who stay together longest, say that they knew in the begining that they where perfect for one another... it was something that clicked with them immediately. That is what this is to me, and now that I have found that I want to do everything in my power to improve our future. So the way I see it, my entire life should be, and will be, a struggle to make sure that those times we are together are the best times we have. I will do whatever I must to make sure that we are okay for the future, because that is what matters to me now.
A lovely quote that I use quite often in signatures, is by Ghandi. It says, "Be the change you wish to see in the world." And to me this is exactly what my life is about, because words can only convey so much, and it is by actions that we gain the admiration and respect of other people. So I will do everything in my power to show people what the world should be through my own deeds. It's difficult when people are hurling insults at you, but there is an inverse corrolation between the struggle and the message; the more I struggle, the more powerful the message will be that I get across.
Faggot, Queer, these are all insults that I have never heard directed at me until now. Those who know me know that I am not the most flamboyant character... it's just my nature, but it's appaling that there are so many people who will hurl these insults simply because they don't like what I stand for... truly bizarre. But I take heart because we also get support... today was a split second thing... it started out with a group of about 6 people, and grew with more supporters who saw us standing there and decided to come show their own support. We even got the news crew down, which was quite unexpected... they had not come down for the formal protests, but when we showed up for this one on a whim, they came down and interviewed the girl who put it together and took some footage. That makes me glad... to know that we are getting the attention on this issue that it deserves.
My life is no longer about having fun. It's not about trying to make friends with nice people in a search for someone who I think is right for me. Somehow I found someone who despite all the odds stacked against us, I KNOW that I love. I read somewhere that people who stay together longest, say that they knew in the begining that they where perfect for one another... it was something that clicked with them immediately. That is what this is to me, and now that I have found that I want to do everything in my power to improve our future. So the way I see it, my entire life should be, and will be, a struggle to make sure that those times we are together are the best times we have. I will do whatever I must to make sure that we are okay for the future, because that is what matters to me now.
A lovely quote that I use quite often in signatures, is by Ghandi. It says, "Be the change you wish to see in the world." And to me this is exactly what my life is about, because words can only convey so much, and it is by actions that we gain the admiration and respect of other people. So I will do everything in my power to show people what the world should be through my own deeds. It's difficult when people are hurling insults at you, but there is an inverse corrolation between the struggle and the message; the more I struggle, the more powerful the message will be that I get across.