"Skillet on the stove is such a temptation, maybe I'll be the lucky one that doesn't get burned...Wh
It's hard moving somewhere completely new. You don't know anyone. You don't know anywhere. You don't know anything. At least it seems that way.
Picture this:
New Job(s)
New Apartment
New Life
New Friends?
Not as easy as everything else. It's hard living by yourself, working with many older people, not having one place to be the whole day since you spend a large portion of said day in your car. Sure, there's the boyfriend and the best friend here, but they have their own lives they are already used to here. It's not fair to think that you should exist in that as well. While you are a part of their summer life, the rest of the year is completely different. They have had their friends for years. They have their daily routines that haven't changed any time recently. They're fine without you.
So now the question is, what the hell do you do? It sucks to only see this guy that you are completely head over heels crazy about once a week, and that's only with his parents or your students around. It sucks not talking for days on end and then feeling like there's nothing to talk about when you do finally connect on the phone because you have no idea what has been going on in the other person's life and it's been so much time between talking that you don't even know where to start.
Also, you've met his (ENTIRE) family and all his friends, both close and not-so-much, yet when you have friends in town, he has stuff going on and can't meet them. When you have a trip planned at a time where for the first time you are both on a vacation, he puts off deciding until he finally says no and you don't really know why he didn't just say that in the first place. That would have saved you from the building excitement about introducing him to YOUR family too and all your friends and what home is for you--the introduction to YOUR world since you already know most about his.
The hardest part is just knowing that he chooses the Rockies and Broncos over you every. single. time. It would feel nice to know that moving here isn't completely hopeless. Especially when you tell him that you're thinking about getting another job to try and meet people more your age--something like waitressing. When his response is an astonished, "but then we'll never see each other," look at him in disbelief and ask how that would be any different than normal before starting up your car and driving off.
Picture this:
New Job(s)
New Apartment
New Life
New Friends?
Not as easy as everything else. It's hard living by yourself, working with many older people, not having one place to be the whole day since you spend a large portion of said day in your car. Sure, there's the boyfriend and the best friend here, but they have their own lives they are already used to here. It's not fair to think that you should exist in that as well. While you are a part of their summer life, the rest of the year is completely different. They have had their friends for years. They have their daily routines that haven't changed any time recently. They're fine without you.
So now the question is, what the hell do you do? It sucks to only see this guy that you are completely head over heels crazy about once a week, and that's only with his parents or your students around. It sucks not talking for days on end and then feeling like there's nothing to talk about when you do finally connect on the phone because you have no idea what has been going on in the other person's life and it's been so much time between talking that you don't even know where to start.
Also, you've met his (ENTIRE) family and all his friends, both close and not-so-much, yet when you have friends in town, he has stuff going on and can't meet them. When you have a trip planned at a time where for the first time you are both on a vacation, he puts off deciding until he finally says no and you don't really know why he didn't just say that in the first place. That would have saved you from the building excitement about introducing him to YOUR family too and all your friends and what home is for you--the introduction to YOUR world since you already know most about his.
The hardest part is just knowing that he chooses the Rockies and Broncos over you every. single. time. It would feel nice to know that moving here isn't completely hopeless. Especially when you tell him that you're thinking about getting another job to try and meet people more your age--something like waitressing. When his response is an astonished, "but then we'll never see each other," look at him in disbelief and ask how that would be any different than normal before starting up your car and driving off.