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I had trouble falling asleep again last night because I think too much. Kendall and I watched the office (as per usual by now) and then had girl talk for a bit and I read something to her so we could try and figure it out (to no avail). When I finally got in bed, I was frustrated again and didn't understand why. I think it's because I was expecting something to be different than usual and it wasn't. I hate being the only person to make and effort when the other says, "let's still talk..." yadda yadda. I realized when I was leaving work today how happy I was there and it was because I didn't think about stupid crap all day. I also know that this is my dream and I am not going to be brought down by people who don't understand it or support me on it. Those just aren't the people I want to be around or have anything to do with. I guess at this point, I'm realizing if I wasn't worth it for five days, why should I spend even that much time thinking about the situation. So, unless something drastically changes in the near future, I'm over it and it's gone from my mind. And the fact that I actually believe myself when I say that lets me know it's going to be a pretty fantastic summer.