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I'm not sure if there's much of a point to this entry. I guess I'm hoping it will help to write things out.
I'm completely upset by the situation with Graham. Upset as in can't decide if I'm mad, or want to sob until I'm hoarse in the throat. I get jealous whenever another girl gets within five feet of him, but there's no real claim to that, now is there? I'm not his girl. And he is not mine.
So why the fuck can't I just get over this? I'm looking at the situation head on, and I can't change how I feel. I still give a damn about his opinions and feelings. I just want to die because of how miserable caring is making me feel. When you love someone, isn't it supposed to make you happy?
This just reminds me of the opening line to "The Holiday"...about people falling in love alone.
I guess I'm the fucking loser who made it a real statement.
I'm completely upset by the situation with Graham. Upset as in can't decide if I'm mad, or want to sob until I'm hoarse in the throat. I get jealous whenever another girl gets within five feet of him, but there's no real claim to that, now is there? I'm not his girl. And he is not mine.
So why the fuck can't I just get over this? I'm looking at the situation head on, and I can't change how I feel. I still give a damn about his opinions and feelings. I just want to die because of how miserable caring is making me feel. When you love someone, isn't it supposed to make you happy?
This just reminds me of the opening line to "The Holiday"...about people falling in love alone.
I guess I'm the fucking loser who made it a real statement.