Lost in the Shadows.....
Simple and clean is the way that you're making me feel tonight... It's hard to let it go.....
Katie found out about the bet Ryan and I had. It's weird tho because she doesn't act like she knows but Steph knows, so I don't know what's going on. I don't think it really matters much, and maybe some people were right when they said that it wasn't the best thing to be doing. I don't know. I just thought it would be fun... That sounds kind of bad, I know. But I was sure it would be not-so-bad for her as well. I don't really see what the big deal is.
Wish I could prove I love you, But does that mean I have to walk on water?
Marissa called at work and left me a message saying that she was "kind of going out with Ryan right now". I don't know why, but that really rubbed me the wrong way. I mean, of course I know that, and it just seemed like she was trying to explain the situation in simple terms, and it seemed very condescending. I just texted her back saying that everything that needed to be said has already been said and that my appology and follow up were for resolution as opposed to being an effort to start up a discussion about it. I am really sick of being the person that's always hurt and then having those same people who hurt me get mad at me. It's really not fair. Maybe people who are diagnosed as clinically depressed just have sucky girl problems. I know not the answer. It just seems to me that Marissa's insanely heartless due to the way that she's handled things. On her message, she also said that she was sorry for not wanting to work things out in the past and that she was "all for it now". Life doesn't work that way. You can't just expect people to wait around untill you are ready to deal with shit. Especially when you are the one who fucked shit up. I mean, if Katie doesn't ever talk to me again, it won't be the best feeling ever, but I will understand and I'll just deal. Life's that simple sometimes. She hasn't called back or texted back, and I don't expect her to.
Fear locks the light in darkness. Courage is the key....
All of the quotes in blue are from a game called Kingdom Hearts. It is, in my opinion, the best game of all time. The plot is that there are many different worlds out there and the heartless, the major enemy, are spreading from world to world and tearing them apart. One guy, with a sword that looks like a key, the keyblade, has to go and stop the heartless. I just love the whole idea behind the game and I think there are a lot of quotes that are really deep. That's why I put them in my journal, just in case people were wondering why they were there.
Starting a new journey may not be so hard, or maybe it has already begun...
I feel like I should be doing something else, like this redundant school and work is just a waste of time. I almost wish I lived way long ago where the average day consisted of killing your enemy and hunting for food. It would at least be exciting. This life is sooooo dull. Mind-numbing. Perhaps that's why I really like to read. The lives in the stories are always far more interesting than mine.
Katie found out about the bet Ryan and I had. It's weird tho because she doesn't act like she knows but Steph knows, so I don't know what's going on. I don't think it really matters much, and maybe some people were right when they said that it wasn't the best thing to be doing. I don't know. I just thought it would be fun... That sounds kind of bad, I know. But I was sure it would be not-so-bad for her as well. I don't really see what the big deal is.
Wish I could prove I love you, But does that mean I have to walk on water?
Marissa called at work and left me a message saying that she was "kind of going out with Ryan right now". I don't know why, but that really rubbed me the wrong way. I mean, of course I know that, and it just seemed like she was trying to explain the situation in simple terms, and it seemed very condescending. I just texted her back saying that everything that needed to be said has already been said and that my appology and follow up were for resolution as opposed to being an effort to start up a discussion about it. I am really sick of being the person that's always hurt and then having those same people who hurt me get mad at me. It's really not fair. Maybe people who are diagnosed as clinically depressed just have sucky girl problems. I know not the answer. It just seems to me that Marissa's insanely heartless due to the way that she's handled things. On her message, she also said that she was sorry for not wanting to work things out in the past and that she was "all for it now". Life doesn't work that way. You can't just expect people to wait around untill you are ready to deal with shit. Especially when you are the one who fucked shit up. I mean, if Katie doesn't ever talk to me again, it won't be the best feeling ever, but I will understand and I'll just deal. Life's that simple sometimes. She hasn't called back or texted back, and I don't expect her to.
Fear locks the light in darkness. Courage is the key....
All of the quotes in blue are from a game called Kingdom Hearts. It is, in my opinion, the best game of all time. The plot is that there are many different worlds out there and the heartless, the major enemy, are spreading from world to world and tearing them apart. One guy, with a sword that looks like a key, the keyblade, has to go and stop the heartless. I just love the whole idea behind the game and I think there are a lot of quotes that are really deep. That's why I put them in my journal, just in case people were wondering why they were there.
Starting a new journey may not be so hard, or maybe it has already begun...
I feel like I should be doing something else, like this redundant school and work is just a waste of time. I almost wish I lived way long ago where the average day consisted of killing your enemy and hunting for food. It would at least be exciting. This life is sooooo dull. Mind-numbing. Perhaps that's why I really like to read. The lives in the stories are always far more interesting than mine.