What's the point?
So I find myself wondering what is the point of it all. I look back on my life and see nothing but disappointment and betrayal. I've been trying to change, but no matter what happens nothing ever changes. I still fill void. I thought going to school, changing my clothes, and volunteering would change something but alas I was wrong. Going to school occupies my time but not enough to keep me from thinking of the past. The clothes change what I look like, but not who I am. It doesn't change the fact that I am still bitter, angry, vengeful, and down right un-trusting of others. The volunteer work at the local school just makes me realize these things more and more. I try to let go of what I have lost but I find myself still trying to cling on. The good news is that I see this, the bad news is that I don't know what to do about it. I just want to scream and let it all go, but I know that if I do nothing will happen..nothing will change...it never does and it looks like it never will. I feel like I am lost, maybe one day I will find myself but by then it may be too late to do anything about it.