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We need to talk...[voice]

Apr 20, 2009 09:56

[Remus sits in the kitchen, switching the voice function on his comm on and off, each time he does so losing his nerve. He’s tried not to talk, to keep his mouth shut and be anti-social, hiding in the library or in his room with his books. His hands are shaking a little and he gets up to pour himself a glass of water as his mouth goes dry.]

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depressed, i need to just get this over with, james, lily, sirius, not good not good

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[Voice] srzlysirius April 20 2009, 20:01:35 UTC

Hmm?

Why do I feel like I'm going to get a bollocking? Alright, where are you then?

Re: [Voice] moonymarauds April 20 2009, 20:07:07 UTC

It's not a bollocking.

[Quiet sigh.]

I'm in the kitchen.

[Action] srzlysirius April 22 2009, 17:32:33 UTC

(ooc : Sorry, was at cousins for two days. I assume it'll be action tags?)

Oh, alright then, I'll be done soon.

[Hum.]

Better not be a bollocking.

[Leaves his room and makes his way down to the kitchen. Wondering what it is that has to be talked about. different scenarios playing out in his mind before he gets to the kitchen. Sees Remus and smiles.]

Hey.

Re: [Action] moonymarauds April 22 2009, 17:37:21 UTC

[[ooc: S'fine and yeah action tags because I'm kind of too busy to really log]]

[Remus doesn't look up at first when he hears Sirius and he mumbles a hello before pulling himself together. He clears his throat and finally looks up, the smile making him frown.]

Hey...I...you might want to sit down.

Re: [Action] srzlysirius April 22 2009, 18:08:57 UTC

[A slight frown but Sirius first gets himself something to drink before sitting up at the counter. Lifting a brow at how Remus is acting.]

If you were a girl, this is where I'd start to panic and think you were pregnant. So, what's wrong? What do you want to talk about?

Re: [Action] moonymarauds April 22 2009, 18:48:01 UTC

[He's tempted to make a joke to try and lighten the atmosphere but that's not really his style. He's the serious one, the one that goes off to think about things and tries to be more rational.]

It's about you and me. Us I suppose.

Re: [Action] srzlysirius April 22 2009, 18:52:42 UTC

[Props his hands behind him and leans back. Even more curious now and smiles.]

Oh? What is it? Uuh, is it because I didn't really help out with Joe? Kids are great, but not when they're screaming and pooping everywhere. Just didn't want all that much to do with it.

Re: [Action] moonymarauds April 22 2009, 19:25:40 UTC

[He really, really wishes he wouldn't smile because it's only making things that much harder for him. His hands tremble and he sets them on his lap, sweaty palms hot through the thick fabric and he has to force himself to maintain eye contact.]

I suppose that's got something to do with it but it's not everything and you know I'm telling the truth because I can't lie this week although I wouldn't lie at all unless it was to spare your feelings. I...[his voice cracks and drops to a whisper] I don't want to be with you anymore.

Re: [Action] srzlysirius April 25 2009, 12:37:05 UTC

[His smile fell and his brow furrowed slightly. He could have heard that wrong. He wished he'd heard that wrong. But...he knew that he hadn't, and it hurt.]

I...Why? I thought...I thought we were doing great! I'm sorry, I'm sorry if it's because I didn't pull my weight!

[He slide off the counter but kept his grip on it.]

Did I do something wrong?

Re: [Action] moonymarauds April 25 2009, 13:45:11 UTC

[Rubs a hand over his face and looks back down at the table, feeling like a coward.]

It's not that. You haven't done anything wrong it's just that I love you but I'm not in love with you if that makes sense. It's not one huge glaring thing or lots of little things it's just...[sighs a little in frustration at not being able to articulate his thoughts] it's just that I don't feel that way about you now.

Re: [Action] srzlysirius April 25 2009, 13:57:48 UTC

[It didn't make sense. Not one bit. Lowers his head to stare at the tips of his shoes. Chewing on his bottom lip. Trying to let it sink in and make any sense at all.]

So, how long have you felt like this? Just suddenly?

[Finally looks back up frowning.]

And if this week didn't happen, when were you going to tell me? Ha, you know, it's kind of funny, because I was really happy. I had the best mates a guy could ask for and I was actually in love and had what I thought was a great relationship. Not one of those stupid two week deals that usually happen.

Re: [Action] moonymarauds April 25 2009, 14:08:49 UTC

Not just suddenly, no; a few weeks.

[Looking a little hurt and annoyed at the first part of what Sirius says.]

I was going to tell you, do you think I'd keep something like that to myself? Or that I'd gossip to everyone but you about it so it got back to you? I wouldn't do that Sirius but I couldn't keep it in and this way you know that what I'm saying is the whole truth and nothing but.

Re: [Action] srzlysirius April 25 2009, 14:16:20 UTC

And you think I'm suppose to feel better that you wouldn't gossip? Jesus fucking Christ Moony! You waited weeks! You led me on thinking everything was fine! Everything was like it was! And...And really you've just been lying about it?

When were you going to tell me? Another few weeks down the line? How fucking convenient that this week is all about telling the truth Remus. I'll have to thank the house for not letting me live like this anymore.

[Pushes away from the counter and shakes his head.]

Anything else you have to say? Might as well add to the list instead of waiting another few weeks until I'm maybe just getting over this.

Re: [Action] moonymarauds April 25 2009, 14:26:35 UTC

I wanted to tell you but there never really seemed to be a moment where I could get you on your own when something mental wasn't going on here! At first I kept thinking that it was just a blip, that I was just feeling down or homesick and that it'd go away but it kept coming back again and again and I couldn't ignore it any longer. I had no clue what to say or how to say it because I still care about you - you've been one of my best friends for years and the whole time we were together and a good bit before I loved you more than I thought was physically possible!

[Rests his head in both hands, eyes shut.]

Nothing apart from that I'm sorry even though that sounds feeble and you probably don't care or want to hear that from me anyway.

Re: [Action] srzlysirius April 25 2009, 14:40:39 UTC

Then you should have just told me and got it over and done with, mental shit or not!

And you're right, I don't want to hear that your sorry, because it's fucking bullshit. You can't be sorry about maybe hurting my feelings when you just break up with me. You can't fucking do that! Because you mean it. Hurting the other is all part of it! Especially when they still felt like every time they're with you, that can't feel any better!

Re: [Action] moonymarauds April 25 2009, 17:48:50 UTC

[[ooc: Apologies for any fail in this but I'm really really freaking bad at writing this stuff .__.]]

This isn't ripping off a bloody plaster Sirius! If I'd done that I would have ended up hurting you even more because I wouldn't have had time to think about what I wanted to say although it's become apparent that nothing I say in this makes any difference now.

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