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I am eternally grateful to have the friends and family that I do.
I have an exam tomorrow that I'm 90% sure I'll flunk. It's my own damn fault, I haven't done enough studying, and I'd like to blame it on my suspected depression (I've never had it confirmed, but I'm pretty sure it is a depression I've been battling with for the past few years), but I dunno.
Either way, I had a bit of a meltdown earlier.
My friend Maja could tell from my texts that I was unhappy, so she called me and I basically cried into her ear for half an hour. And then my sister invited me out for a cup of hot chocolate to help me take my mind off the exam.
Just got back in, am gonna watch some tv and knit, and then get some sleep.
And then most likely embarrass myself in front of my lecturers tomorrow, but then so be it. If I flunk I can try again in January. But I'm hoping, of course, that I end up with a question that I can at least talk my way through to a pass, even if only barely.
I have an exam tomorrow that I'm 90% sure I'll flunk. It's my own damn fault, I haven't done enough studying, and I'd like to blame it on my suspected depression (I've never had it confirmed, but I'm pretty sure it is a depression I've been battling with for the past few years), but I dunno.
Either way, I had a bit of a meltdown earlier.
My friend Maja could tell from my texts that I was unhappy, so she called me and I basically cried into her ear for half an hour. And then my sister invited me out for a cup of hot chocolate to help me take my mind off the exam.
Just got back in, am gonna watch some tv and knit, and then get some sleep.
And then most likely embarrass myself in front of my lecturers tomorrow, but then so be it. If I flunk I can try again in January. But I'm hoping, of course, that I end up with a question that I can at least talk my way through to a pass, even if only barely.