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we're all so broken or distressed
i think its beacuse winter is coming, and the cold weather reminds us of the many things we dont have
or do have? or had? or never will have?
i think i need more sleep to write down whats on my mind
lets see, whats on my mind
some girl pati knows, and that I semi know got hit by car.
we're so mortal you and I. so mortal it hurts. jajaja, although that might not make sense it does beacuse damn. this is our life we are talking about.
here i am sitting studying for orgo, when i should be out helping people! working and producing and helping!!
not just sitting on my ass waiting for life to find me.
even though i am working towards my life.
and then there is...
my life is such a mirror image of so many other things. i hate it. i hate being selfish too.
but here i am. beggining.
not so much begging as i am cursing. beacuse it would only seem fair that my life be a shadow.
ok this makes no sense, and this journal was not made for ambigouity.
qrfvidng3rwere
i want a moment of mental piece and quiet, where i can just sit.
sit sit sit
and forget about all the stupid shit i have done, and all the people i have hurt and all of the problems i cause
... yup.
or forget about how i am wasting my life learning about chemicals and bonds and things that will never help me in saving another persons life.
i'm freaked i guess.
i'm to foreward. i dont like it. i dont like to put myself out there or anywhere for that matter.
and damn
just damn.
i'm so restless. i want some adventure, something to remind me that time is passing.
i want it to rain rainbows, or to take a road trip to canada, to go to mars, to go ice skating
my friends, the word of the week is mundane.
i think its beacuse winter is coming, and the cold weather reminds us of the many things we dont have
or do have? or had? or never will have?
i think i need more sleep to write down whats on my mind
lets see, whats on my mind
some girl pati knows, and that I semi know got hit by car.
we're so mortal you and I. so mortal it hurts. jajaja, although that might not make sense it does beacuse damn. this is our life we are talking about.
here i am sitting studying for orgo, when i should be out helping people! working and producing and helping!!
not just sitting on my ass waiting for life to find me.
even though i am working towards my life.
and then there is...
my life is such a mirror image of so many other things. i hate it. i hate being selfish too.
but here i am. beggining.
not so much begging as i am cursing. beacuse it would only seem fair that my life be a shadow.
ok this makes no sense, and this journal was not made for ambigouity.
qrfvidng3rwere
i want a moment of mental piece and quiet, where i can just sit.
sit sit sit
and forget about all the stupid shit i have done, and all the people i have hurt and all of the problems i cause
... yup.
or forget about how i am wasting my life learning about chemicals and bonds and things that will never help me in saving another persons life.
i'm freaked i guess.
i'm to foreward. i dont like it. i dont like to put myself out there or anywhere for that matter.
and damn
just damn.
i'm so restless. i want some adventure, something to remind me that time is passing.
i want it to rain rainbows, or to take a road trip to canada, to go to mars, to go ice skating
my friends, the word of the week is mundane.