Today God was good!
Last night I prayed to God to deliver me from my depression and my pain and during that nights service I felt so relaxed. Before the service I was depressed and broken. I did not feel anything really which is abnormal for me. I'm usally in a depression or in pain that I can't get past that and worship God. After Aiesha prayed with me she encouraged me to push through my fear of the unknown and fear of the unknown and worship God. I tried and was rewarded with my depression being lifted. This morning, or really yesterday morning since it's Sunday now, I fet so conforted and it was so nice to not have that darkness on me. It was by no means meracialous but the worship was. Everyone was so moved my Jesus and the Holy Sprit that it was so beautiful. We did devotionals for 45min and during that time I for once did not worry if I was doing it right or worried I was not going to finish all 3 chapters like I convinced my self that everyone else will. I wrote down questions. I wanted to know what a tabernacial was or why sacrificing animals were important. I felt a hunger for knowlage about God. It was as if I took my first step towards eatting solid spirtral food.
I shaired this with everyone tonight and one of the things that pastor Mario said was that I will be unrecognizable in a month. I have awakened a change in me. One that I want to activaly prosue. I have said to myself befor that I have had enough, I'm going to change and not go back but end up going back after a short time. I think that was because I did not follow through by activaly prosuing God. Which I have now. I have the desire to want to learn about his word. Wanting to set time aside for devotionals and at last start walking with God.
I shaired this with everyone tonight and one of the things that pastor Mario said was that I will be unrecognizable in a month. I have awakened a change in me. One that I want to activaly prosue. I have said to myself befor that I have had enough, I'm going to change and not go back but end up going back after a short time. I think that was because I did not follow through by activaly prosuing God. Which I have now. I have the desire to want to learn about his word. Wanting to set time aside for devotionals and at last start walking with God.