Seasons Change....
The summer has flown by....doesn't seem possible that it is already fall. Although I love fall, it is my favorite season, I'm not really ready for it this year. Of course that is probably just a sign of aging.
SAM is supposed to be here again next month and I can hardly wait. It is so odd to think about all of it...what has transpired...how my life has changed. He makes my heart so full. I've never know anyone whose presence I have enjoyed being in more than his. It is funny, it really takes no more than that...his mere presence. How could I have known it was really that simple?
I've thought about what it might have been like if I'd met him sooner in my life. Perhaps, I would have ended up with a child or two. My best guess though, is that we would not have had any interest in one another any earlier in our lives. He would have thought I was boring and I would have thought he was unbearable. Things do come in their own time.
I will always be sad, though that I never had a baby. He doesn't get that...partly because he is a man and partly because he has children. How can you imagine your life without them when they are always there? Perhaps, someday, I'll get to share his grandchildren with him.
In the meantime, I'm looking forward to things changing, for the better. I want to be with him everyday...always. I finally am believing that it's going to work.
SAM is supposed to be here again next month and I can hardly wait. It is so odd to think about all of it...what has transpired...how my life has changed. He makes my heart so full. I've never know anyone whose presence I have enjoyed being in more than his. It is funny, it really takes no more than that...his mere presence. How could I have known it was really that simple?
I've thought about what it might have been like if I'd met him sooner in my life. Perhaps, I would have ended up with a child or two. My best guess though, is that we would not have had any interest in one another any earlier in our lives. He would have thought I was boring and I would have thought he was unbearable. Things do come in their own time.
I will always be sad, though that I never had a baby. He doesn't get that...partly because he is a man and partly because he has children. How can you imagine your life without them when they are always there? Perhaps, someday, I'll get to share his grandchildren with him.
In the meantime, I'm looking forward to things changing, for the better. I want to be with him everyday...always. I finally am believing that it's going to work.