Life...
It's so hard to keep up with this, but I am still glad I have an outlet for expressing myself.
1. Just came back from Jackson Wyoming after visiting friends: I overcame my fear of flying, I overcame my fear of deep lakes and fell in love with kyaking at the same time, grieved like a crazy woman in the deeps woods of Grand Teton national Park, had one night of drinking WAYYYYY to much whiskey and now looking at a bottle of alcohol makes me want to puke, came back with new insight and ideas on how to live my life without my mother.
2. Sister just came out of her third rehab stint. 3 times in a little over a year. Valium and alcohol is time. After months of lying to me and telling me she's fine, getting angry at me if I ask her if she's using, she was back for a 10 day stint at detox. I told her I am done with her until she can be clean and stop lying to me. Apologies don't work when they are backed by deceit.
3. I am starting to pimp myself out as a personal assistant. I have 2 gigs, one for a friend who's a nutritional consultant and one for the plant nursery I have been working for the past 2 years. It's fun and different and I rock as a PA. Better hours and pay is good. I am going down to 16 hours at Good Earth and starting a film class in August!
4. Still trying to make a meeting with Idaho Architect. We have tried at least 4 times and because of scheduling we have yet to meet up. He invited me to Burning Man with him, but it coincides with Anya's first week of kindergarten. That would have been a mind blowing time! I invited him to Seattle again in August and he is uncertain he is free. Meanwhile, we continue to nurture of long distance friendship/romance with letters, emails, calls and texts. It's still really fun.
1. Just came back from Jackson Wyoming after visiting friends: I overcame my fear of flying, I overcame my fear of deep lakes and fell in love with kyaking at the same time, grieved like a crazy woman in the deeps woods of Grand Teton national Park, had one night of drinking WAYYYYY to much whiskey and now looking at a bottle of alcohol makes me want to puke, came back with new insight and ideas on how to live my life without my mother.
2. Sister just came out of her third rehab stint. 3 times in a little over a year. Valium and alcohol is time. After months of lying to me and telling me she's fine, getting angry at me if I ask her if she's using, she was back for a 10 day stint at detox. I told her I am done with her until she can be clean and stop lying to me. Apologies don't work when they are backed by deceit.
3. I am starting to pimp myself out as a personal assistant. I have 2 gigs, one for a friend who's a nutritional consultant and one for the plant nursery I have been working for the past 2 years. It's fun and different and I rock as a PA. Better hours and pay is good. I am going down to 16 hours at Good Earth and starting a film class in August!
4. Still trying to make a meeting with Idaho Architect. We have tried at least 4 times and because of scheduling we have yet to meet up. He invited me to Burning Man with him, but it coincides with Anya's first week of kindergarten. That would have been a mind blowing time! I invited him to Seattle again in August and he is uncertain he is free. Meanwhile, we continue to nurture of long distance friendship/romance with letters, emails, calls and texts. It's still really fun.