Round up them doggies
1. Mom's memorial was so beautiful! I let go of all my agenda and my dislike of the Catholic Church and realized that this is for my mom, not me. The memorial was so her, since her life was so deeply part of the Church, it was an appropriate ritual for who my mom was. The Ash Scattering was hard since I got sea sick and then food poisoning from a crappy salad and then I just missed my mom so much since all the rituals of her Goodbye were over. I also missed her rubbing my back when I was puking from the crappy salad.
2. Tentatively worked stuff out with my sis, but I am thinking that fighting will just be a part of our relationship until she can get over her anger for her life and take reaponsibilty for how she repsonds and interacts with others. Some day I may get so fed up with it that I will disown her. Bytm yeah, mom, she is my sister and I can't drop her like hot pancake, but I am trying to figure out a way to lessen her negative influence on my life.
3. Things with the Idaho Architect are still lovely and amazing. We are still talking about trying to meet at some point, since scheduling had been a problem with both our lives. I am not into pushing it, so I will be patient until an appropriate moment comes for us to play again. In the meantime, he still is an amazing influence on my sexual growth even though he's 800 miles away. I wrote my very first erotic story because of my interactions with him. I like the intimacy we are creating with out the drama or chaos of having each other in our daily reality. I was thinking about what it would be like if he lived around here and I think things would not be as fun or free if that was the case.
4. Great Fucking Movie: "This Film is Not yet Rated". Documentary about the Film Ratings Board, how it's basically a group of "concerned parents" (mostly with a republican agenda) who say what can or can't be in a film. Although getting a Film Rating is "optional", a film cannot get into widespread theaters without a film rating. It also showed how the film board approves more movies with violence than sex (or love), and tends to give movies that show male sexualty an "R" and movies that show "positive" female sexuality an "NC-17". Also any gay sex in ALWAYS NC-17, if there is a sex scene than involves any other sexual position other that "missionary" or woman on top, NC-17. Woman's orgasm that lasts more than 1 minute, NC-17. Violence against women, rape scenes, or "funny" sex scenes where a woman is the joke, "R". It's pretty fucked up.
The other interesting thing I learned is that if a director appeals the judgement of his or her movie, they go up against an Appeals Board that has a Catholic AND a Protestant Preist on it. Not baised, Huh?
2. Tentatively worked stuff out with my sis, but I am thinking that fighting will just be a part of our relationship until she can get over her anger for her life and take reaponsibilty for how she repsonds and interacts with others. Some day I may get so fed up with it that I will disown her. Bytm yeah, mom, she is my sister and I can't drop her like hot pancake, but I am trying to figure out a way to lessen her negative influence on my life.
3. Things with the Idaho Architect are still lovely and amazing. We are still talking about trying to meet at some point, since scheduling had been a problem with both our lives. I am not into pushing it, so I will be patient until an appropriate moment comes for us to play again. In the meantime, he still is an amazing influence on my sexual growth even though he's 800 miles away. I wrote my very first erotic story because of my interactions with him. I like the intimacy we are creating with out the drama or chaos of having each other in our daily reality. I was thinking about what it would be like if he lived around here and I think things would not be as fun or free if that was the case.
4. Great Fucking Movie: "This Film is Not yet Rated". Documentary about the Film Ratings Board, how it's basically a group of "concerned parents" (mostly with a republican agenda) who say what can or can't be in a film. Although getting a Film Rating is "optional", a film cannot get into widespread theaters without a film rating. It also showed how the film board approves more movies with violence than sex (or love), and tends to give movies that show male sexualty an "R" and movies that show "positive" female sexuality an "NC-17". Also any gay sex in ALWAYS NC-17, if there is a sex scene than involves any other sexual position other that "missionary" or woman on top, NC-17. Woman's orgasm that lasts more than 1 minute, NC-17. Violence against women, rape scenes, or "funny" sex scenes where a woman is the joke, "R". It's pretty fucked up.
The other interesting thing I learned is that if a director appeals the judgement of his or her movie, they go up against an Appeals Board that has a Catholic AND a Protestant Preist on it. Not baised, Huh?