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[moonlitxxlove]

so i guess its time for an update. today is 10 months with chris. =) hes crazy and i love it. lol i love how we can talk on the phone for 40 mins at a time and have an actual conversation. its not just lulls of silence.. its actual talk. i wish the rest of my life was going as well as my relationship. =\ school is really starting to get to me. i just dont like it anymore. i hate the pressure of getting so much work done in such a little amount of time. the commute is horrible. im just not enjoying it like i should be. they say that the college years are the best of your life. for me.. theyre really not so great. i have a small group of friends and i hate hate hate that i have to commute. i really just cant wait until i get a job and i can afford to get a place on my own and just start life. i kinda just wish i could skip the next 2 years and be out of school already. school is just not for me. i need to work on my own time. i hate being rushed. i hate being stressed. i hate doing things that i dont want to do. i wish i was happy in every aspect of my life. not just one or two. =(

so its pretty decided that my sister is going to go to israel for her first year of college. i cant believe shes actually going to go so far away for a year. i think my mom is just agreeing because she knows that it will make aimee happy but i really think shes not too thrilled about the idea. i have no clue how my dad feels. hes probably overjoyed that at least one of his children is dedicated to judaism. i just dont care about being jewish right now. =P its not the biggest part of my life anymore. during high school is was but now its just not. and the fact that im dating chris just puts the cherry on top of that pile. =P

can someone just point me in a direction that will help life move faster please? i dont know what to do anymore. =(