Moving Forward
One minute I'm thinking this is all so stupid.
And the next, I'm right back where I started. Central. Reset. Alive. Fine.
Free.
Click?
I made it? Things are simple? I'm... fine?
I remember this. My computer is my comfort, my zone, my love. My infinite window to the world beyond the world. My room is my cocoon. I have peace here.
I really have peace. This is... nice. On the other side of the pain is a new life, a rebirth, a remembrance. A reconnection with my own value outside of someone else's anger or judgment.
Caring for myself instead of giving all of my energy away to someone else's problems all the time. I feel... centralized. I'm my own. This is important.
I love the thought of being in love and being in a relationship. But maybe... I don't HAVE to do that. I need to give it time. But maybe this simplicity is worth holding onto for a while.
And the next, I'm right back where I started. Central. Reset. Alive. Fine.
Free.
Click?
I made it? Things are simple? I'm... fine?
I remember this. My computer is my comfort, my zone, my love. My infinite window to the world beyond the world. My room is my cocoon. I have peace here.
I really have peace. This is... nice. On the other side of the pain is a new life, a rebirth, a remembrance. A reconnection with my own value outside of someone else's anger or judgment.
Caring for myself instead of giving all of my energy away to someone else's problems all the time. I feel... centralized. I'm my own. This is important.
I love the thought of being in love and being in a relationship. But maybe... I don't HAVE to do that. I need to give it time. But maybe this simplicity is worth holding onto for a while.