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Hello again.
It's another new year. 2013, come and gone.
I remember this same time last year, I was still reeling from grief.
I'm glad that things are better now. Compared to 2012, 2013 has been really good.
I traveled to a lot of places this past year. Arkansas for Wakarusa. Took a grand tour of the southwestern US, and what a tour that was. New Orleans. Texas Renaissance Festival (twice!). Monroe for no reason. Morgan City for no reason. A lot of places for no reason. I learned how to get up and leave when I need to.
I feel like, in the past year, I've really learned how to live properly. I guess I'm getting good at it, by now. I've been having fun this whole time, but I'm really getting into the groove of this "enjoy life" thing. A lot of expectations and judgments have been shed, and it's really taken the pressure off.
I've really managed to shape the life that I want, at least right now. I feel like for the majority of my life, things have been beyond my control, or that it's been a struggle and a fight to try and get to where I want to be, and getting to that spot was never really a goal that I managed to reach with any type of finality or completion. But now, it's like I've finally got all the pieces in place. I'm taking a break. I don't have to fight for a little while.
It's high time I had a break from all this ruckus.
But really, things are good. I've got a wonderful job that gives me more money than I've ever made before, which is nice. I look forward to going in, I enjoy it, and it fits in with my sleep cycle and my life. It's pretty much exactly where I want to be, at least for right now.
I've got a fantastic boyfriend. We've been together for over 2 years now. It's been a fight and gotten really rough at points, but I feel like we've finally come to a point of understanding with each other about nearly everything. We learned how to have fights without being assholes to each other, and we've actually managed to get somewhere with them. We work things out and we fight less and less all the time. And through all of this, we still love being around each other. We take care of each other and make a point to always do kind things for each other. I think that's one big part of why we've been doing so well. We are constantly making the other one feel special and loved, like we just started dating. It feels good. And I feel like we've really helped each other grow to be better individuals.
I've got a good place to live with low bills. I have absolutely fantastic friends. I have plenty of time to myself to pursue my own interests and hobbies, and I finally figured out how important it is to my happiness for me to always be learning something new. There are still plenty of thing that I'm working on (like making myself get up at a decent hour) but overall I feel like I've really reached a good place mentally, emotionally, intellectually, and just in my life in general. Things are good, and this is me looking around and appreciating it while it lasts.
Now let's see what adventures 2014 has in store.
It's another new year. 2013, come and gone.
I remember this same time last year, I was still reeling from grief.
I'm glad that things are better now. Compared to 2012, 2013 has been really good.
I traveled to a lot of places this past year. Arkansas for Wakarusa. Took a grand tour of the southwestern US, and what a tour that was. New Orleans. Texas Renaissance Festival (twice!). Monroe for no reason. Morgan City for no reason. A lot of places for no reason. I learned how to get up and leave when I need to.
I feel like, in the past year, I've really learned how to live properly. I guess I'm getting good at it, by now. I've been having fun this whole time, but I'm really getting into the groove of this "enjoy life" thing. A lot of expectations and judgments have been shed, and it's really taken the pressure off.
I've really managed to shape the life that I want, at least right now. I feel like for the majority of my life, things have been beyond my control, or that it's been a struggle and a fight to try and get to where I want to be, and getting to that spot was never really a goal that I managed to reach with any type of finality or completion. But now, it's like I've finally got all the pieces in place. I'm taking a break. I don't have to fight for a little while.
It's high time I had a break from all this ruckus.
But really, things are good. I've got a wonderful job that gives me more money than I've ever made before, which is nice. I look forward to going in, I enjoy it, and it fits in with my sleep cycle and my life. It's pretty much exactly where I want to be, at least for right now.
I've got a fantastic boyfriend. We've been together for over 2 years now. It's been a fight and gotten really rough at points, but I feel like we've finally come to a point of understanding with each other about nearly everything. We learned how to have fights without being assholes to each other, and we've actually managed to get somewhere with them. We work things out and we fight less and less all the time. And through all of this, we still love being around each other. We take care of each other and make a point to always do kind things for each other. I think that's one big part of why we've been doing so well. We are constantly making the other one feel special and loved, like we just started dating. It feels good. And I feel like we've really helped each other grow to be better individuals.
I've got a good place to live with low bills. I have absolutely fantastic friends. I have plenty of time to myself to pursue my own interests and hobbies, and I finally figured out how important it is to my happiness for me to always be learning something new. There are still plenty of thing that I'm working on (like making myself get up at a decent hour) but overall I feel like I've really reached a good place mentally, emotionally, intellectually, and just in my life in general. Things are good, and this is me looking around and appreciating it while it lasts.
Now let's see what adventures 2014 has in store.