The Ocean That Ate Bombay
I looked up at the skylights today. They were covered by fabric to keep the sun from shining through. But the wind was rustling that fabric, and I felt like I was under the water, looking up.
Set the dates for the move back to CT. April gets here August 1st, and we leave on the 3rd... and get back to CT on the 9th. I'm excited!!!!! And sad :(
Hollywood really killed my love of the pursuit of acting (but never acting). Outside of Art's class, I don't think I've done any "real" acting... the kind of acting that is truly satisfying... since I moved to LA. And even though I don't want to live the Hollywood life any longer, I still feel a loss. It's like my dislike Cadbury eggs. I really think I love them, and then I bite into one and think "eww... should I finish this? I guess so. Ew, no I can't. But it's chocolate. Crappy chocolate with too much sugar. But it IS chocolate, nonetheless. I'll eat it. I'm never eating one of these again..... but they ARE made of chocolate...)
I've been working on Hops all week. So, lots of Chelsea Handler. And even more Cyclops... I mean James Marsden. Too skinny in person. But still good eye candy. Xmen... drool.
Has anyone else watched that interview with Jesse James on ABC? I found myself not loathing him as much. I don't think an abusive childhood is a valid excuse for cheating, and I'm glad Sandra left him. But he seemed really real in the interview, and I'm happy he's getting the help he needs. People see it as pity publicity (why else would he be bringing his childhood up NOW), but I think he's just coming to terms with the reality of his life, which includes childhood. And his talking about it publicly is a way of acknowledging that reality (irony. Is TV EVER reality?). And I could also see what would have made Sandra marry him in the first place. He's got a big desire to do the right thing. It's too bad it took messing up a handful of lives in order to fix his own, but I hope he is able to face himself and make a better person and life out of all of this.
Not excused, but understood.
Gross... celebrity gossip... sorry about that!
I finished reading "Elegy for Iris" by John Bayley. If you want a true story of two very unusual people sharing a very unique but deep love, this is a great book. It's the story of John Bayley and his wife Iris Murdoch. How they met. Their travels together. And how their love and marriage strengthened when Iris was diagnosed with Alzheimer's. Think "The Notebook" but not fiction and not sentimental, and almost painfully honest. PS-The movie is spot-on, if you don't like books.
Some notable moments in the book:
1. As Iris lost all comprehension of language, John Bayley found he could still make her laugh with childish jokes, such as:
"Mary had a little bear
So loving and so kind
And everywhere that Mary went
You saw her bear behind"
(... It makes me laugh too.)
2. John speaks often of how easy Iris' transition was into complete fog, since she wasn't ever attached to her sense of self, and refers to her as "one of these identity-free spirits for whom being is not what they are, but what they live in and reveal."
3. At one point one of Iris' best friends is showering her (as she is unable to it herself), and Iris says says to her. "I see an angel, and I think it is you." Another doctor friend is measuring her comprehension levels and asks Iris if she has been writing (mind you, she is LONG past writing and language in general) and she says to him "I feel I am sailing into the darkness." Such beautiful moments of semi-clarity. There's another moment when John gets frustrated and starts yelling at the uncomprehending her, to which she responds "But I love you." Oh and another time he loses it and is screaming at her, and she responds with a calm "Let's go. There now. Bed." She doesn't know why he is angry at her, but she doesn't hold it against him, and tries to comfort him the best she can.
It is a rambling book, written like a personal journal... but it's so easy to fall in love in their secret language, inside jokes, and unconventional relationship.
Set the dates for the move back to CT. April gets here August 1st, and we leave on the 3rd... and get back to CT on the 9th. I'm excited!!!!! And sad :(
Hollywood really killed my love of the pursuit of acting (but never acting). Outside of Art's class, I don't think I've done any "real" acting... the kind of acting that is truly satisfying... since I moved to LA. And even though I don't want to live the Hollywood life any longer, I still feel a loss. It's like my dislike Cadbury eggs. I really think I love them, and then I bite into one and think "eww... should I finish this? I guess so. Ew, no I can't. But it's chocolate. Crappy chocolate with too much sugar. But it IS chocolate, nonetheless. I'll eat it. I'm never eating one of these again..... but they ARE made of chocolate...)
I've been working on Hops all week. So, lots of Chelsea Handler. And even more Cyclops... I mean James Marsden. Too skinny in person. But still good eye candy. Xmen... drool.
Has anyone else watched that interview with Jesse James on ABC? I found myself not loathing him as much. I don't think an abusive childhood is a valid excuse for cheating, and I'm glad Sandra left him. But he seemed really real in the interview, and I'm happy he's getting the help he needs. People see it as pity publicity (why else would he be bringing his childhood up NOW), but I think he's just coming to terms with the reality of his life, which includes childhood. And his talking about it publicly is a way of acknowledging that reality (irony. Is TV EVER reality?). And I could also see what would have made Sandra marry him in the first place. He's got a big desire to do the right thing. It's too bad it took messing up a handful of lives in order to fix his own, but I hope he is able to face himself and make a better person and life out of all of this.
Not excused, but understood.
Gross... celebrity gossip... sorry about that!
I finished reading "Elegy for Iris" by John Bayley. If you want a true story of two very unusual people sharing a very unique but deep love, this is a great book. It's the story of John Bayley and his wife Iris Murdoch. How they met. Their travels together. And how their love and marriage strengthened when Iris was diagnosed with Alzheimer's. Think "The Notebook" but not fiction and not sentimental, and almost painfully honest. PS-The movie is spot-on, if you don't like books.
Some notable moments in the book:
1. As Iris lost all comprehension of language, John Bayley found he could still make her laugh with childish jokes, such as:
"Mary had a little bear
So loving and so kind
And everywhere that Mary went
You saw her bear behind"
(... It makes me laugh too.)
2. John speaks often of how easy Iris' transition was into complete fog, since she wasn't ever attached to her sense of self, and refers to her as "one of these identity-free spirits for whom being is not what they are, but what they live in and reveal."
3. At one point one of Iris' best friends is showering her (as she is unable to it herself), and Iris says says to her. "I see an angel, and I think it is you." Another doctor friend is measuring her comprehension levels and asks Iris if she has been writing (mind you, she is LONG past writing and language in general) and she says to him "I feel I am sailing into the darkness." Such beautiful moments of semi-clarity. There's another moment when John gets frustrated and starts yelling at the uncomprehending her, to which she responds "But I love you." Oh and another time he loses it and is screaming at her, and she responds with a calm "Let's go. There now. Bed." She doesn't know why he is angry at her, but she doesn't hold it against him, and tries to comfort him the best she can.
It is a rambling book, written like a personal journal... but it's so easy to fall in love in their secret language, inside jokes, and unconventional relationship.