Halcyon days ??
This has been brewing for a while really, but a recent re-visit to a site I was a very active member of wayyyy back has really brought it to the fore for me. And I know you are all thinking "ahhh - UKP", but its not UKP at all, although that has made it all a bit more topical
Nay - the forum in question is a Yahoo group for solitary witches, and at ( Read more... )
All that happens is they just gather more people as they go along and just get more spiteful and more bitchy.
It comes to something when someone I dont even know and who only knows OF me from what other people have told her, appears to be an absolute authority on my ability, character, and my integrity.
Apparently anyone with a browser can see what a liar I am. Well you've tried yourself to find something I have said which proves I'm a fake and can you?? No because I havent done these things she says and yet to listen you'd think she knew me personally.
I cant go on my LJ, I cant go on any of the bigger forums because wherever I go I get lambasted. I dont go where they are. I dont bloody well follow them around and mock and pour filth and spite on them. So why the hell cant they fucking well leave me alone.
Oh I can hear the "I have been a member there years" argument as I speak. Well you wouldnt know it given the amount of posts they have NOT got!!!!!
I have been threatened with hexing. I've been attacked constantly. I've been accused of lying. I've been accused of stealing other peoples ideas. I've been accused of not even knowing how to cast a single spell before others had taught me. Others who you and I actually helped out with a working MG, Because she couldnt do it alone. Remember?
I have even been accused of hexing others when I haven't.
You know me MG. You've known me longer than most of them. Have I ever lied? Have I ever claimed to be someone I'm not? How come when I went on UKP others who have been there from day dot welcomed me? How come one even said "how are you, you old witch", if in the early days I was fluffy and didnt know what I was doing.
I'm sorry MG but they win. I've had enough. Ok this time may not seem anywhere near as huge as things which have happened in the past, but now others are joining in the "hilarity" at my expense. Others who I loved, mocking and spiteful just because my craft isnt as "important" as theirs.
I dont need it any more, especially with how ill I am lately and even more especially with how ill Martyn is.
It would take something bloody huge to get me out of this frame of mind at the moment and far more than just not letting them win. Lovey they already have :(
But you know whats actually funny? They are the liars and the frauds. Hereditary witches eh? Being born into pagan families eh? Right ........ theyre liars and I can prove it because I actually DO have the links that show them for the lying hypocrites they are.
Oh but dont worry, I'm sure everyone will agree its only my bi polar disorder talking and "my illness playing out on line" as usual.
Fuck them !!
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And no, you havent lied. And plenty of people know that. The majority of people know that.
I already said i am not going to argue with you on this. This LJ wasnt with the aim to try and talk you around, you know this post has been brewing for a while.
But you have just said yourself how many of the old hands welcomed you and are glad to see you on UKP - that must count for something. As you yourself have just said, if all those things were true that have been said or implied, you would not have been welcomed, and people wouldnt still come to you. How many young witches have you helped along? They wouldnt have found you if it hadnt been for your online presence. And what would have happened to them otherwise ?
And anyone who can accuse a perfectly normal human reaction of being down to biploar is sick and despicable indeed. You know that. Anyone with any morals knows that.
But this post wasnt about you, petal, although it is relevent to that. It was about my general pissed-off-ness at the general over riding attitudes that abounds within pagans online, that they are somehow better than everyone else - when at the end of the day we all take a shit, and we are all accountable for our actions. Personal responsibility is key to paganism, and yet most of them who lay claim to the pagan world view need to be reminded of that. The universe has a wonderful way sometimes of putting things right, even if we dont get to see it.
And I am not going to let them win, nor am I going to allow just one face of paganism to be seen - the face of the arse - lol.
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Oh lovey I know that and I know this isnt about me per se, but its timing was apt thats all.
All these things you have said, is what I said couple of years ago and one reason why I managed to get myself embroiled in the Druid shit. I didnt want the morons to win. Trouble is they all ended up acting like morons.
Ive been tired of it all for a LONG time, pet. Maybe after I've calmed down eh.......... we shall see.
But one thing will remain and thats that I have friends who I love and who love me and whatever happens THAT will never change
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