Fuck Life
Okay, so today wasn't that bad...to begin with.
It started with me taking Brandon out to lunch, 'cause I wanted to thank him for dealing with my car accident. Katy came over and took pictures of us, 'cause we looked GOOD. So, we went to Christine's Restarunt - it was awsome. I mean, great service, excallent food, just a wonderful day. Then Brandon and I did some running around, still looking good. *yes, i got checked out a few times, but so did Brandon*
So, we come home just in time for me to get changed to go to a Dr. appt., again, and Katy took me to that. Then we went to Wal*Mart to go and get the pictures developed that she just took, but 1 hr. photo costs almost $8, so we put it in for the two day thing. Then we went to the bank so I can give my mom money for my bills. We came home, just in time to go to the MHS Winter Concert.
The chorus groups were awsome, and we cheered for Tara, as always. It was good to see some of my old classmates again. Then, my mother, myself and Katy decided to go to Friendly's, and that's where it got bad.
A lot of people came into Friendly's, and decided to take up tables around my table. Keep in mind, I knew everyone there. So, I'm just chilling, and I realized that no one fucking cared about me, as always. Everyone was talking about college, and whatnot, and I realized that I'm a worthless loser b/c I don't go to college, so I didn't have anything to talk about. However, I didn't come with them, I came with Katy and my mom, so I shouldn't have cared. Then Tom showed up, and it was fun, but I was feeling sorry for myself, so I was depressed.
We all came back to my house, including Tom, and we were just chilling. Then, apparently my mom said something to Katy to depress her, and she was sad and depressed. Then, she and my mom got into a quarrel, not a fight, but a quarrel, and I jumped in to help my mom out, which Katy said that I shouldn't have done. So, now my mom and Katy are mad at eachother.
So, I go out to the front porch to see if Katy's alright, and we get into a fight. Just great, right? So, we're yelling at eachother, and it's just bad. I just tried to help, but I made it worse so I didn't help. Oh well. So, she went home upset, and now I was upset.
So, I go online to chill, and a classmate of mine IMs me to tell me to stop flirting with him, because I told him at the school that his hair did make him look hot. So, I went on the defencive, and we had a fight. According to him, I'm stuck in high school, and firefighting in my "shit town" is not good enough. I'm also not doing anything with my life, because I'm still in this "shit town." I tried to point out that I'm leaving in April, but no, that didn't matter 'cause I'm not in college, so I'm not doing anything for my life.
So, that's where I am. I am super depressed, I've got people telling me that I'm immature, and Katy's walking around town to think things out. I'm in pain too, because a raise in blood pressure causes pain to already painfull spots.
I can't talk to Brandon 'cause he's asleep, and the people that I normally talk to online are not on. I just wish I could make the pain in my life stop. I think that right now I'm looking forward to death. It would be a welcome change in my life...yes, I know...stop feeling fucking sorry for yourself. Boo-fucking-hoo. You know what? Fuck you, everyone. Fuck you
It started with me taking Brandon out to lunch, 'cause I wanted to thank him for dealing with my car accident. Katy came over and took pictures of us, 'cause we looked GOOD. So, we went to Christine's Restarunt - it was awsome. I mean, great service, excallent food, just a wonderful day. Then Brandon and I did some running around, still looking good. *yes, i got checked out a few times, but so did Brandon*
So, we come home just in time for me to get changed to go to a Dr. appt., again, and Katy took me to that. Then we went to Wal*Mart to go and get the pictures developed that she just took, but 1 hr. photo costs almost $8, so we put it in for the two day thing. Then we went to the bank so I can give my mom money for my bills. We came home, just in time to go to the MHS Winter Concert.
The chorus groups were awsome, and we cheered for Tara, as always. It was good to see some of my old classmates again. Then, my mother, myself and Katy decided to go to Friendly's, and that's where it got bad.
A lot of people came into Friendly's, and decided to take up tables around my table. Keep in mind, I knew everyone there. So, I'm just chilling, and I realized that no one fucking cared about me, as always. Everyone was talking about college, and whatnot, and I realized that I'm a worthless loser b/c I don't go to college, so I didn't have anything to talk about. However, I didn't come with them, I came with Katy and my mom, so I shouldn't have cared. Then Tom showed up, and it was fun, but I was feeling sorry for myself, so I was depressed.
We all came back to my house, including Tom, and we were just chilling. Then, apparently my mom said something to Katy to depress her, and she was sad and depressed. Then, she and my mom got into a quarrel, not a fight, but a quarrel, and I jumped in to help my mom out, which Katy said that I shouldn't have done. So, now my mom and Katy are mad at eachother.
So, I go out to the front porch to see if Katy's alright, and we get into a fight. Just great, right? So, we're yelling at eachother, and it's just bad. I just tried to help, but I made it worse so I didn't help. Oh well. So, she went home upset, and now I was upset.
So, I go online to chill, and a classmate of mine IMs me to tell me to stop flirting with him, because I told him at the school that his hair did make him look hot. So, I went on the defencive, and we had a fight. According to him, I'm stuck in high school, and firefighting in my "shit town" is not good enough. I'm also not doing anything with my life, because I'm still in this "shit town." I tried to point out that I'm leaving in April, but no, that didn't matter 'cause I'm not in college, so I'm not doing anything for my life.
So, that's where I am. I am super depressed, I've got people telling me that I'm immature, and Katy's walking around town to think things out. I'm in pain too, because a raise in blood pressure causes pain to already painfull spots.
I can't talk to Brandon 'cause he's asleep, and the people that I normally talk to online are not on. I just wish I could make the pain in my life stop. I think that right now I'm looking forward to death. It would be a welcome change in my life...yes, I know...stop feeling fucking sorry for yourself. Boo-fucking-hoo. You know what? Fuck you, everyone. Fuck you