thank you
thank you everyone who posted nice things to my post this morning
i hope when is aid suicidal ideations no one thought iw as really suicidal, my brain was having old trains of thoughts from days when i was suicidal but i wasn't like suicidal was just having those thoughts in my head
i am still awake, and really really tired and going to lie down and see if i fall asleep, i amgoing to search for my trazadone and i think i am not ready to get off of it yet.
i guess everyone has some inner voice of doubt, an inner self critic sorta thing, and when i am really tired those thoughts get to be very very loud and make sleeping very very hard. so part of me does think all those bad things about me, but most of me feels pretty ok about who i am. it is really hard to realize that most of my friends are younger than i am and are a lot further along than me as far as work and education goes. but then i have been working really really hard on mental health stuff for a while now and it has beenr eally hard work, just society doesn't really view it as work, and frequently wheni meet people the way conversations get started is someone asks "so what do you do" and i tend to say well i am studying arta nd alternative architecture. which is true, though it kind of implies i am a college student and currently i'm not ...
anyhow i need to lie down
thank you nice people for the hugs and kind words
i hope when is aid suicidal ideations no one thought iw as really suicidal, my brain was having old trains of thoughts from days when i was suicidal but i wasn't like suicidal was just having those thoughts in my head
i am still awake, and really really tired and going to lie down and see if i fall asleep, i amgoing to search for my trazadone and i think i am not ready to get off of it yet.
i guess everyone has some inner voice of doubt, an inner self critic sorta thing, and when i am really tired those thoughts get to be very very loud and make sleeping very very hard. so part of me does think all those bad things about me, but most of me feels pretty ok about who i am. it is really hard to realize that most of my friends are younger than i am and are a lot further along than me as far as work and education goes. but then i have been working really really hard on mental health stuff for a while now and it has beenr eally hard work, just society doesn't really view it as work, and frequently wheni meet people the way conversations get started is someone asks "so what do you do" and i tend to say well i am studying arta nd alternative architecture. which is true, though it kind of implies i am a college student and currently i'm not ...
anyhow i need to lie down
thank you nice people for the hugs and kind words