Venting about Mo
I think I'm a bit annoyed. I called Mo to talk to her about me moving in with Lester and Nogs when she just kinda went off on me. She's very protective of me, but I don't see how me moving in with friends is any different than me living on my own at the house in Tulsa. Only in Tulsa I'd be completely alone so if anything happened, no one would know. Here I'd at least have 4 other people looking out for me. 5 if I include Delphi if she decides to stay over the summer. And Rabbitwarren makes 6 if ever the need arose and she was still living in her apartment. I'm pretty sure Whitecrab is going home.
I think my mom's main argument is she doesn't know these people. She's never met any of them and knows I've only known Nogs for a year (Lester for a semester). But she's has always liked my friends and it's really upsetting b/c the vibe I'm picking up from her is one of distrust toward me. Like she's afraid I'm going to go out drinking every night and party all day. It really pisses me off. She said that my best argument would be for me to attend summer school. But if I do that, I won't be able to work as much, which would suck since that's what I like to do over the summer. It's my break from school. Give me three months of peace from professors!
One of the main reasons I'm staying is so I won't be isolated anymore. I had to spend all of last summer in Branson alone. Sure I met some great people at work but I didn't hang out with them a whole lot. When I got home, I was alone and I didn't leave until the next time I worked. I'm not saying I didn't have fun; I had loads of fun. But the thing is that I was still alone. The reason why I stayed in Branson was to be close to Slash since he had moved to Joplin. The situation didn't really work out as well as it could have and I take the blame for that. I didn't take off work to see him b/c I was being a selfish bitch. But here I'll be close to Shannon and all my other friends.
I don't want to be isolated anymore. I want to enjoy life and be with my peers, not stuck in a house 30 minutes from civilization where I don't know anyone. Not stuck in a house with my over protective mother where I would know even less people. Not stuck in SD with my sister where I would live on the edge of a knife everyday. Not in Tulsa where I would be completely alone in an unfurnished house and 30 minutes away from my closest friend. I want to be with my fucking friends where I belong! I mean, I'm almost 20! Is that really so much to ask? I've been the responsible one my entire life and I'm tired of being perfect and I'm tired of always going along with what my mother says. I'm not going to start doing drugs and drinking just b/c I'm living with friends that my mom doesn't know. And she's already started judging them! Ahh! It's so frustrating. I don't want to play her fucking games anymore!
I don't want to play anymore.
I think my mom's main argument is she doesn't know these people. She's never met any of them and knows I've only known Nogs for a year (Lester for a semester). But she's has always liked my friends and it's really upsetting b/c the vibe I'm picking up from her is one of distrust toward me. Like she's afraid I'm going to go out drinking every night and party all day. It really pisses me off. She said that my best argument would be for me to attend summer school. But if I do that, I won't be able to work as much, which would suck since that's what I like to do over the summer. It's my break from school. Give me three months of peace from professors!
One of the main reasons I'm staying is so I won't be isolated anymore. I had to spend all of last summer in Branson alone. Sure I met some great people at work but I didn't hang out with them a whole lot. When I got home, I was alone and I didn't leave until the next time I worked. I'm not saying I didn't have fun; I had loads of fun. But the thing is that I was still alone. The reason why I stayed in Branson was to be close to Slash since he had moved to Joplin. The situation didn't really work out as well as it could have and I take the blame for that. I didn't take off work to see him b/c I was being a selfish bitch. But here I'll be close to Shannon and all my other friends.
I don't want to be isolated anymore. I want to enjoy life and be with my peers, not stuck in a house 30 minutes from civilization where I don't know anyone. Not stuck in a house with my over protective mother where I would know even less people. Not stuck in SD with my sister where I would live on the edge of a knife everyday. Not in Tulsa where I would be completely alone in an unfurnished house and 30 minutes away from my closest friend. I want to be with my fucking friends where I belong! I mean, I'm almost 20! Is that really so much to ask? I've been the responsible one my entire life and I'm tired of being perfect and I'm tired of always going along with what my mother says. I'm not going to start doing drugs and drinking just b/c I'm living with friends that my mom doesn't know. And she's already started judging them! Ahh! It's so frustrating. I don't want to play her fucking games anymore!
I don't want to play anymore.