Dreamboat Manor for a Psychiatric Exam......
Its been a while since I posted, hell its been a while since I have done alot of things!!! Have you ever had one of those days that seems endless and full of crap you really don't want to deal with but have too? Well, try having that for 5 months.....well really most of your life. The last 5 months have just been one of those days!
My dad is crazy, and I will no longer be associating with him. My mom is finally going to divorce him, something I have been asking her to do for so long its not funny. So it fianlly looks like she is going to get out from under the good for nothing free loader who's only contribution to society has been me and my sister. Also, he has kept many police officers employeed with his antics. I am sure they apprecicate him like crazy for the job security he has given them!
Anyways, my mom has been living at mine and Amandas place since April. Which isn't a bad thing, she helped with bills and stuff. Just like having a thrid roommate again! She is going to be moving in with my brother and sister in law at the end of the month. They all got a house together, she will have my neice in the room next door and my brother across the hall. So that will be good for her! Maybe they can convince her to hurry up on the divorce front! I am ready for that part to be over for her.
In other mom news, she finally finished all of her reconstuctive surgery to get her breast back. She is a breast cancer survior for anyone who doesn't know. 2 years this past June!! She was very excited when she finished the final surgery, and she says she feels like a whole person again. Of course 3 weeks after the last surgery she had a gull bladder attack that caused a sevre infection in her pancreas and liver and had to be taken from work in the ambulance and have emergency surgery. I work for the same company as my mom, infact I work one floor up in the building next door. We are all connected by skywalks, so when they found her on the bathroom floor in crazy pain unable to move, what does she tell them? Not call and ambulance!! She tells them to call me!!!
Ok, so when someone calls and tells you that your mother (who has really really high blood pressure and been under a load of stress) is laying on the bathroom floor complaining of severe chest and abdominal pain you will automatically think heart attack!! I am sorry but you will. And I did! I RAN to where they said she was, but I stayed calm, had an ambulance called and did not shed a tear or freak out until I was in her car driving to the hospital alone. And that was the one and only time in the week and a half ordeal that we went through. I did pretty good, I am better in a bad situation than I thought I was! Good to know!
So, anyways we got thru that! And she got better finally, although it took a little while because like I said it was a severe infection! Like bad! Worse than even she thought, one that could have killed her had it gone untreated much longer! But we don't discuss that! Its was my own little nightmare scenario that they Dr felt the need to confide in me. Its cool, apprently I am a big girl now and can handle hearing such things about my mother while she is lying in a hospital bed and I have been monitoring her breathing because the pain killer they use can cause her to forget to breathe. Rock, welcome to the real life, strangly it feels more and more like a bad soap opera! So anyways, she got better but now we found out she has a large cyst on her pancreas. A week ago they thought they would give it 6 weeks to shrink and probably not have to do anything else to it. Now they are saying she has to be back in 2 weeks for another CT scan and then will probably have to have a very invasive surgery to remove the infected area that will keep her out of work for a month or more. She doesn't handle bad news really well anymore, as you could imagine. And I can't be the little ray of sunshine for her anymore because she just doesn't belive it. Hell, I am starting not to belive it!
Anyways, through all of this I have still tried to have some kind of a social life to keep me going and you know all that other jazz that comes with having good friends. Well, its hard when you know what your mom has been going thru to really motivate yourself to leave her for long periods of time. Some people understand, some people don't. Some think I am ignoring them or choosing other friends over them, some think I am just being a bitch and trying to give them the hint that I want nothing to do with them anymore. Well, none of that is true, I love all my friends and would love to spend lots of time with them, infact anytime that I don't spend with my mom and niece I would like to spend with my freinds. But it just hasn't seemed possible to shake the idea in my head that I should be spending time with my family. Sue me if you think I am wrong for that, but I think its the right thing to do. It makes my mom happy when I stay home on Friday night and watch movies with her and cook pizza. Or when we take her to the movies. It makes me happy to go and get my neice and take her places and chill with her on a saturday night! She is highly entertaining for a 1 and half year old, lots of personality! And I like to see her grow and develop and all that Jazz. She is the only little one in the family right now, so she is somehting of a novelty! LOL!
Anyways, I am not aiming this at any one person. That would be stupid, I still think I have wonderful friends. Everyone is human and nobody can say they aren't guilty of thinking things that are completely not true just because they feel neglected. Hell, I am doing it right now I am sure!!! LOL! Its human nature to assume the worst case scenario, that way it won't be as painful when you find out what is really going on.
Anyways, keep my mom in your thoughts, I am sure she will come thru this like she does everything else. Its one more scar to show for a life full of battles!! (How is that for Soap Opera!)
Oh, one more thing, I HATE MY JOB!!!! I really really do!
My dad is crazy, and I will no longer be associating with him. My mom is finally going to divorce him, something I have been asking her to do for so long its not funny. So it fianlly looks like she is going to get out from under the good for nothing free loader who's only contribution to society has been me and my sister. Also, he has kept many police officers employeed with his antics. I am sure they apprecicate him like crazy for the job security he has given them!
Anyways, my mom has been living at mine and Amandas place since April. Which isn't a bad thing, she helped with bills and stuff. Just like having a thrid roommate again! She is going to be moving in with my brother and sister in law at the end of the month. They all got a house together, she will have my neice in the room next door and my brother across the hall. So that will be good for her! Maybe they can convince her to hurry up on the divorce front! I am ready for that part to be over for her.
In other mom news, she finally finished all of her reconstuctive surgery to get her breast back. She is a breast cancer survior for anyone who doesn't know. 2 years this past June!! She was very excited when she finished the final surgery, and she says she feels like a whole person again. Of course 3 weeks after the last surgery she had a gull bladder attack that caused a sevre infection in her pancreas and liver and had to be taken from work in the ambulance and have emergency surgery. I work for the same company as my mom, infact I work one floor up in the building next door. We are all connected by skywalks, so when they found her on the bathroom floor in crazy pain unable to move, what does she tell them? Not call and ambulance!! She tells them to call me!!!
Ok, so when someone calls and tells you that your mother (who has really really high blood pressure and been under a load of stress) is laying on the bathroom floor complaining of severe chest and abdominal pain you will automatically think heart attack!! I am sorry but you will. And I did! I RAN to where they said she was, but I stayed calm, had an ambulance called and did not shed a tear or freak out until I was in her car driving to the hospital alone. And that was the one and only time in the week and a half ordeal that we went through. I did pretty good, I am better in a bad situation than I thought I was! Good to know!
So, anyways we got thru that! And she got better finally, although it took a little while because like I said it was a severe infection! Like bad! Worse than even she thought, one that could have killed her had it gone untreated much longer! But we don't discuss that! Its was my own little nightmare scenario that they Dr felt the need to confide in me. Its cool, apprently I am a big girl now and can handle hearing such things about my mother while she is lying in a hospital bed and I have been monitoring her breathing because the pain killer they use can cause her to forget to breathe. Rock, welcome to the real life, strangly it feels more and more like a bad soap opera! So anyways, she got better but now we found out she has a large cyst on her pancreas. A week ago they thought they would give it 6 weeks to shrink and probably not have to do anything else to it. Now they are saying she has to be back in 2 weeks for another CT scan and then will probably have to have a very invasive surgery to remove the infected area that will keep her out of work for a month or more. She doesn't handle bad news really well anymore, as you could imagine. And I can't be the little ray of sunshine for her anymore because she just doesn't belive it. Hell, I am starting not to belive it!
Anyways, through all of this I have still tried to have some kind of a social life to keep me going and you know all that other jazz that comes with having good friends. Well, its hard when you know what your mom has been going thru to really motivate yourself to leave her for long periods of time. Some people understand, some people don't. Some think I am ignoring them or choosing other friends over them, some think I am just being a bitch and trying to give them the hint that I want nothing to do with them anymore. Well, none of that is true, I love all my friends and would love to spend lots of time with them, infact anytime that I don't spend with my mom and niece I would like to spend with my freinds. But it just hasn't seemed possible to shake the idea in my head that I should be spending time with my family. Sue me if you think I am wrong for that, but I think its the right thing to do. It makes my mom happy when I stay home on Friday night and watch movies with her and cook pizza. Or when we take her to the movies. It makes me happy to go and get my neice and take her places and chill with her on a saturday night! She is highly entertaining for a 1 and half year old, lots of personality! And I like to see her grow and develop and all that Jazz. She is the only little one in the family right now, so she is somehting of a novelty! LOL!
Anyways, I am not aiming this at any one person. That would be stupid, I still think I have wonderful friends. Everyone is human and nobody can say they aren't guilty of thinking things that are completely not true just because they feel neglected. Hell, I am doing it right now I am sure!!! LOL! Its human nature to assume the worst case scenario, that way it won't be as painful when you find out what is really going on.
Anyways, keep my mom in your thoughts, I am sure she will come thru this like she does everything else. Its one more scar to show for a life full of battles!! (How is that for Soap Opera!)
Oh, one more thing, I HATE MY JOB!!!! I really really do!