none at all
Christ, i cant believe i am still looking for a job, after all this time, i'll just have to sign back on at the agency if i dont find anything before i go back to college. but then still look for a permanent job, i am not doing temporary work for any longer than i have to, its just until something better turns up.
i'm happy my theory is out the way now, i can concentrate on passing the driving test from now on. but yea, obviously i've known for ages i'm staying at college for another 2 years.....this is for a number of reasons that link together pretty well. still starting at the same degree level, but obviously i'm not moving away like everyone else is doing.....
this is my own decision, and i'm doing it for myself; i'm not all there yet, i'm not happy with how i am, i need to raise my confidence, going to take a class for this when available this year. yea i know people could say 'well this shouldnt stop you moving away, you will be alright when you get there and used to it'. but i know i most likely wont be okay, i'm most likely to hate it and feel lonely when i struggle to talk to people properly and make connections. then end up having to go home when this happens, and that will be a hard adjustment to make after all that effort. it would feel like going backwards. this way i can help myself, because i havent really acknowledged to myself before that i needed this, under the hope i would just be fine. but i wasent. also by doing this i can earn some money over the 2 years, and pass my driving, and get 'sorted'. i can find somewhere to study for the last 2 years which is more right for me, i never really knew where i wanted to study last year when i had to apply....didnt make an informed decision. i might not be living in halls and going out and all that for the next 2 years like everyone else, but at least i know its right for me so i can better myself for the future.
i'm happy my theory is out the way now, i can concentrate on passing the driving test from now on. but yea, obviously i've known for ages i'm staying at college for another 2 years.....this is for a number of reasons that link together pretty well. still starting at the same degree level, but obviously i'm not moving away like everyone else is doing.....
this is my own decision, and i'm doing it for myself; i'm not all there yet, i'm not happy with how i am, i need to raise my confidence, going to take a class for this when available this year. yea i know people could say 'well this shouldnt stop you moving away, you will be alright when you get there and used to it'. but i know i most likely wont be okay, i'm most likely to hate it and feel lonely when i struggle to talk to people properly and make connections. then end up having to go home when this happens, and that will be a hard adjustment to make after all that effort. it would feel like going backwards. this way i can help myself, because i havent really acknowledged to myself before that i needed this, under the hope i would just be fine. but i wasent. also by doing this i can earn some money over the 2 years, and pass my driving, and get 'sorted'. i can find somewhere to study for the last 2 years which is more right for me, i never really knew where i wanted to study last year when i had to apply....didnt make an informed decision. i might not be living in halls and going out and all that for the next 2 years like everyone else, but at least i know its right for me so i can better myself for the future.