just one break?
I know i shouldnt be doing this right now, but it is one of my many ways of distracting myself from the rediculous amount of HW i have to do. weeeee.
So nothing has really changed in the past day or so other than me getting more and more stressed. Thursday was the worlds most obnoxious day ever. I had Art History where my teacher yelled at me for the books not being delivered on time, even though i ordered them on time. Then, she skipped my meeting to go with someone else...
Personality was actually a good time. The presentation was wicked shorts which sucks for them because that means points off, but for us it meant we got out early. On top of that we discussed next weeks plans. Apparently we have like a days worth of work to cover over 4 days. So one day we will review for a test, and one day he is actually going to hypnotize us, i am excited!
After i went home and tried to make lunch. Mom stopped to tell me that she doesnt feel like buying us gifts this year for christmas, so she was just going to give us money. I told her that i though christmas was a time for everyone to hang out and have a good time. Gifts are supposed to be something you spend time looking for and having fun, having cash is not fun. I told her i didnt want it. Yeah, she wasnt expecting that.
Then she went on to say more stuff. Yeah it wasnt a pretty arguement. Stuff about her wanting to evict the girls, and more on how much i took advantage of her. I yelled back this time though. I couldnt hold it in any longer. What was worse was going downstairs and realizing that handy had heard it all. She shouldnt have to hear that. I started to pour the macaroni when i just burst into tears in her arms, no explanation was needed. I felt like shit.
I didnt want to go to work. It was the absolute last thing i wanted to do. It was the awful class. The first was fine as usual, a bunch of kids, but something i could deal with. Then free play sucked because i was alone with about 25 kids. I asked Ana if she would come out and she actually said no, that she was tired. I was like ohhhh lady. I wish i could have gotten it in writing, so when one of the kids fell it would have been her fault. The class after sucked too, it was freakin exhausting. We actualy kicked a kid out for entire class because he was doing so bad.
After i went home and was just exhausted. Everyone kept asking me if i was sad, and though i was slightly off as usual, i wasnt oober sad and i just wanted to sleep. It was Thursday so Handy and i got a Pizza and Buffalo Tenders. It was what i believe to be the most delicious pizza i have EVER eaten. It was perfect. yeah, and then i ate too much that i couldnt move. I ended up by passing out at 8:00. I didnt wake up until 10:00 the next morning either. I was so tired, and i wouldnt have gotten up if handy had no made me. So i took a shower, and i spent the rest of the day in bed :) Then i took another almost 2 hour long nap until babysitting. So i got absolutely no work accomplished, not even cleaning my car which smells so bad that it makes me sick to my stomach... literally.
babysitting hasnt been all that bad. I feel bad for Eliza because she broke her arm just after getting over a broken leg. The poor girl... She was so good though, and then Allie was good, and James had a lot of energy from coming from a birthday party (at my gym :)) but they all behaved. they all went to bed on time, and yeah.
So i am actually going to get to work now. I feel like shit. I am the worlds worst roomate and i am causing a whole bunch of problems and i suck at life, and ughhhh. I dont know.
So nothing has really changed in the past day or so other than me getting more and more stressed. Thursday was the worlds most obnoxious day ever. I had Art History where my teacher yelled at me for the books not being delivered on time, even though i ordered them on time. Then, she skipped my meeting to go with someone else...
Personality was actually a good time. The presentation was wicked shorts which sucks for them because that means points off, but for us it meant we got out early. On top of that we discussed next weeks plans. Apparently we have like a days worth of work to cover over 4 days. So one day we will review for a test, and one day he is actually going to hypnotize us, i am excited!
After i went home and tried to make lunch. Mom stopped to tell me that she doesnt feel like buying us gifts this year for christmas, so she was just going to give us money. I told her that i though christmas was a time for everyone to hang out and have a good time. Gifts are supposed to be something you spend time looking for and having fun, having cash is not fun. I told her i didnt want it. Yeah, she wasnt expecting that.
Then she went on to say more stuff. Yeah it wasnt a pretty arguement. Stuff about her wanting to evict the girls, and more on how much i took advantage of her. I yelled back this time though. I couldnt hold it in any longer. What was worse was going downstairs and realizing that handy had heard it all. She shouldnt have to hear that. I started to pour the macaroni when i just burst into tears in her arms, no explanation was needed. I felt like shit.
I didnt want to go to work. It was the absolute last thing i wanted to do. It was the awful class. The first was fine as usual, a bunch of kids, but something i could deal with. Then free play sucked because i was alone with about 25 kids. I asked Ana if she would come out and she actually said no, that she was tired. I was like ohhhh lady. I wish i could have gotten it in writing, so when one of the kids fell it would have been her fault. The class after sucked too, it was freakin exhausting. We actualy kicked a kid out for entire class because he was doing so bad.
After i went home and was just exhausted. Everyone kept asking me if i was sad, and though i was slightly off as usual, i wasnt oober sad and i just wanted to sleep. It was Thursday so Handy and i got a Pizza and Buffalo Tenders. It was what i believe to be the most delicious pizza i have EVER eaten. It was perfect. yeah, and then i ate too much that i couldnt move. I ended up by passing out at 8:00. I didnt wake up until 10:00 the next morning either. I was so tired, and i wouldnt have gotten up if handy had no made me. So i took a shower, and i spent the rest of the day in bed :) Then i took another almost 2 hour long nap until babysitting. So i got absolutely no work accomplished, not even cleaning my car which smells so bad that it makes me sick to my stomach... literally.
babysitting hasnt been all that bad. I feel bad for Eliza because she broke her arm just after getting over a broken leg. The poor girl... She was so good though, and then Allie was good, and James had a lot of energy from coming from a birthday party (at my gym :)) but they all behaved. they all went to bed on time, and yeah.
So i am actually going to get to work now. I feel like shit. I am the worlds worst roomate and i am causing a whole bunch of problems and i suck at life, and ughhhh. I dont know.