Bone-tired and over-emotional
I just barely managed to drag myself in today. As I had clarified to Chad last week, I'm pretty rock-solid during crises, and then tend to collapse after them, both emotionally and physically. I'm definitely at that point right now, even though things aren't actually entirely sorted and resolved (I myself lost six hours of extraordinarily careful writing about touchy stuff, and haven't had the emotional energy to go back and re-write yet, although that may ultimately be for the best in this situation). Things aren't in active crisis at the moment, though, so the breather has been good for restoring some calm to the situation.
Today I seem to be especially emotional. Cried my eyes out finishing up watching the Olympics Opening Ceremony, even though I can quote chapter and verse on reasons to be cynical in regards to it. (I'm always simultaneously a sap and a cynic about the Olympics, and especially about their effects on the locations in which they're held.) Cried some more listening to old hymns on youtube.
Also on the emotional but ultimately positive side, I finally wrote and sent a 20-year-overdue apology to a person in my life who richly deserved it.
And Chad's been great about switching around to being my support while I recover from the effects of the past week, too, which has been awesome; he's made me feel overwhelmingly loved and appreciated and supported.
So, basically, things are good. I'm just feeling so tired and incoherent at this point that the rest of the evening will be spent focusing on stuff that just doesn't require much focus (or emotional processing). Probably more music stuff.
Today I seem to be especially emotional. Cried my eyes out finishing up watching the Olympics Opening Ceremony, even though I can quote chapter and verse on reasons to be cynical in regards to it. (I'm always simultaneously a sap and a cynic about the Olympics, and especially about their effects on the locations in which they're held.) Cried some more listening to old hymns on youtube.
Also on the emotional but ultimately positive side, I finally wrote and sent a 20-year-overdue apology to a person in my life who richly deserved it.
And Chad's been great about switching around to being my support while I recover from the effects of the past week, too, which has been awesome; he's made me feel overwhelmingly loved and appreciated and supported.
So, basically, things are good. I'm just feeling so tired and incoherent at this point that the rest of the evening will be spent focusing on stuff that just doesn't require much focus (or emotional processing). Probably more music stuff.