Good Day...
I did end up falling asleep on serpentseye quite early last night, but we had a good time hanging out today, and I'm gradually feeling better physically. Still have the general bodyaches going on, but nothing worse than that. And I just got word that my scheduling problems for the clinic escorts over the holiday weekend are solved; the clinics will be closed, so I don't have to stress. Yay! *big relief* I still have to do the rest of the month's schedule, but this takes a lot of the pressure off; I was at the point of abject begging on the escort list for extra people, and was feeling a bit guilty that I myself was going to be gone that weekend, too.
Had a good conversation with Serpentseye about being a very social introvert, and how that affects my desires to interact with groups of people (going out to clubs, parties, etc). In general, I have to have a decent amount of notice on it, to be in the right mental state. That's true of dates, especially early on, too. And I need a lot of recharging time from intensive interactions with other people. I don't need to be alone to accomplish that, but I have to be at a household-level comfort level, where it's fine if I'm just here, in my own head, not particularly interacting. We were also talking about why I like a modality like LJ for one of my primary social and communication tools; it allows me to titrate my level of social interaction much more finely than most options. I think I come across as much more of an extrovert than I actually am, in terms of internal energy patterns, is because I'm really not at all shy (something many people seem to associate with introversion), and I'm as much of a psychological nudist as a physical one, so I live in my head and think a whole lot, but I then splatter it everywhere in a way most introverts don't seem to.
Speaking of which, recharging time for me now, too. Although writing posts is often an element of that; because of the asynchronous nature of the interaction, writing a post (as opposed to a reply, which is a much more direction "interaction") is in many ways recharging for me -- it's a version of thinking out loud as much as actively reaching out for interaction at that particular moment. Or it can be, depending on my mood.
Had a good conversation with Serpentseye about being a very social introvert, and how that affects my desires to interact with groups of people (going out to clubs, parties, etc). In general, I have to have a decent amount of notice on it, to be in the right mental state. That's true of dates, especially early on, too. And I need a lot of recharging time from intensive interactions with other people. I don't need to be alone to accomplish that, but I have to be at a household-level comfort level, where it's fine if I'm just here, in my own head, not particularly interacting. We were also talking about why I like a modality like LJ for one of my primary social and communication tools; it allows me to titrate my level of social interaction much more finely than most options. I think I come across as much more of an extrovert than I actually am, in terms of internal energy patterns, is because I'm really not at all shy (something many people seem to associate with introversion), and I'm as much of a psychological nudist as a physical one, so I live in my head and think a whole lot, but I then splatter it everywhere in a way most introverts don't seem to.
Speaking of which, recharging time for me now, too. Although writing posts is often an element of that; because of the asynchronous nature of the interaction, writing a post (as opposed to a reply, which is a much more direction "interaction") is in many ways recharging for me -- it's a version of thinking out loud as much as actively reaching out for interaction at that particular moment. Or it can be, depending on my mood.