Sigh...
I just don't have the strength to make a big lJ post like I used to...
Sigh...
Ok... I'll try.
My life since the last giant post:
Roger and I have been together for almost a year now. We first met in December, the 28th. I talked to him a long time online before that though.
So yeah... One whole fucking year.
This is the longest relationship I've ever had, and the first real intimate one, because I don't count the few occasions I delved into the straight world... They were nice, but the first time I had sex with a man it was like a whole different experience... It's hard to describe... But like Sex with a girl was nice, and enjoyable, and all that, but there was just something so much more behind sex with a man.
I guess that's what makes me gay, eh?
So anyway...
A whole fucking year. The other day after Roger and I had finished uh... Making love, hehe, He asked me something... "You know it hasn't even been a year yet, did you ever think a year ago you would be here, doing this?"
Honestly I didn't.
I didn't think I would be here.
I didn't think... That's what I didn't do. I went for something I thought I wanted. I did want it... I'm just not so sure it's what I still want.
No I'm not suddenly straight, no I'm not suddenly into guys my age... I just don't know if this is all right...
I'm so lonely here... No one here has the same interests as me... and it's so hard to get close to anyone here...
Cracker Barrel gave me a couple of friends, but still they don't really share common interests with me.
But anyway...
I took a couple of classes this semester which wasn't cheap, but I've got A's.
I would have never been able to get A's at MSU... Cause I was just too into being independent... I fucked up.
Here I don't have anything better to do than my homework and essays and shit.
So I study, So I do my homework...
I don't know.
I'm going to be in KY Jan. 4-10.
I'm psyched for friends.
Other than that my Job is going well. I still enjoy it, and I still make a lot of money. I think that's what really drives me. Last week I made over 800. My best serving week ever. I had like a good day every day that week.
:)
Tomorrow I'm working a Double. That's so much money. Sunday is so much money. Then I'm off Monday and Tuesday.
Yeah. Yum.
Anyway...
I'm such a slacker still.
LOL.
:)
Much love kiddos.
-John
Sigh...
Ok... I'll try.
My life since the last giant post:
Roger and I have been together for almost a year now. We first met in December, the 28th. I talked to him a long time online before that though.
So yeah... One whole fucking year.
This is the longest relationship I've ever had, and the first real intimate one, because I don't count the few occasions I delved into the straight world... They were nice, but the first time I had sex with a man it was like a whole different experience... It's hard to describe... But like Sex with a girl was nice, and enjoyable, and all that, but there was just something so much more behind sex with a man.
I guess that's what makes me gay, eh?
So anyway...
A whole fucking year. The other day after Roger and I had finished uh... Making love, hehe, He asked me something... "You know it hasn't even been a year yet, did you ever think a year ago you would be here, doing this?"
Honestly I didn't.
I didn't think I would be here.
I didn't think... That's what I didn't do. I went for something I thought I wanted. I did want it... I'm just not so sure it's what I still want.
No I'm not suddenly straight, no I'm not suddenly into guys my age... I just don't know if this is all right...
I'm so lonely here... No one here has the same interests as me... and it's so hard to get close to anyone here...
Cracker Barrel gave me a couple of friends, but still they don't really share common interests with me.
But anyway...
I took a couple of classes this semester which wasn't cheap, but I've got A's.
I would have never been able to get A's at MSU... Cause I was just too into being independent... I fucked up.
Here I don't have anything better to do than my homework and essays and shit.
So I study, So I do my homework...
I don't know.
I'm going to be in KY Jan. 4-10.
I'm psyched for friends.
Other than that my Job is going well. I still enjoy it, and I still make a lot of money. I think that's what really drives me. Last week I made over 800. My best serving week ever. I had like a good day every day that week.
:)
Tomorrow I'm working a Double. That's so much money. Sunday is so much money. Then I'm off Monday and Tuesday.
Yeah. Yum.
Anyway...
I'm such a slacker still.
LOL.
:)
Much love kiddos.
-John