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So that past couple of days could have been better. For a while there I was happier than ever [yes, I didn't think it was possible] but of course, things had to ruin it. I got soo sick Thursday night, So I couldn't work on Friday, and spent all day yesterday at Nicole's sleeping/being lazy and sick. I made it to work tonight because I can't afford to lose anymore moolah, and it wasn't so bad until I came home.. And Nicole tells me how my sister was saying shit when I was at work, like telling my mom that I "hate" her, and that she doesn't owe me my vodka, and that I tell Thersa 'everything'. I love how everyone just assumes everything and pretends like they know me. Janell has a big fucking mouth, no wonder I don't tell her anything, honestly.. where would it get me if I did? She contstantly talks shit And I really don't see where she has any room to, or why she'd even want to.. and most of all she says it all behind my back and to my best friend. We're sisters and we're supposed to be on the same side.. and shes just constantly being such a bitch to me and pushing me away. I can't wait til she grows up.
All I keep thinking about is graduation, and summer, and getting the fuck out of here with my fucked up family. I wish I could say I was going away to college, but sadly, I'm not. I don't even really want to be. i need to live on my own and do my own thing. Nicole worries me a lot cos she still doesn't have a job or a car and I dunno if shes gonna be able to hold up her end of everything. Sam tells me I'd be able to do it on my own, & that she could if she wanted to. I know I could but I'd really rather not be struggling and living paycheck to paycheck. I just hope she can get her shit together so we can make this work..
Also, this week's the class trip. I took off on Thurs Fri & Sat to make my own little 'class trip', however I still don't have any real plans. Thursday is Brad's birthday, and I dunno what else I'm going to be doing. Maybe dress shopping [hopefully I can finally decide on something] and get my research shit done so I don't have to worry about not graduating. Either way I wanna have *some* fun.. I need some fun
All I keep thinking about is graduation, and summer, and getting the fuck out of here with my fucked up family. I wish I could say I was going away to college, but sadly, I'm not. I don't even really want to be. i need to live on my own and do my own thing. Nicole worries me a lot cos she still doesn't have a job or a car and I dunno if shes gonna be able to hold up her end of everything. Sam tells me I'd be able to do it on my own, & that she could if she wanted to. I know I could but I'd really rather not be struggling and living paycheck to paycheck. I just hope she can get her shit together so we can make this work..
Also, this week's the class trip. I took off on Thurs Fri & Sat to make my own little 'class trip', however I still don't have any real plans. Thursday is Brad's birthday, and I dunno what else I'm going to be doing. Maybe dress shopping [hopefully I can finally decide on something] and get my research shit done so I don't have to worry about not graduating. Either way I wanna have *some* fun.. I need some fun