The Past...
I decided to open this bad boy back up. The reasons? Well one reason is that I am thinking of putting a lock on my Xanga account and then not everyone would be able to see it... not that many people read it as is, but I'm trying to rationalize this. I am thinking of using my Xanga to post things that are more about inside jokes along with the other stuff for the people who are on my Xanga friends list and then just post more "blog" like things here. People who don't have Xanga can't comment on it, so this way those people will... I'm not holding my breath on that one though. Actually I have quite a few friends who do have LJs so maybe I will start reading theirs again.
Anyway, no matter what the reasons I am here... for now...
I was reading through some of my old LJ posts and it amazes me how much I have changed in the years since I have used this. Don't get me wrong, I still have goals, but I don't feel as rushed as I once did. I am learning to go with the flow for once. Its a refreshing thing to not lie awake at night and try to figure my entire life out before I fall asleep. I'm not in Cali, Chicago, or NYC and that's fine with me. It isn't that I have given up those options, I am just enjoying what I am doing now. Maybe I'll never be there, and that's fine as long as I'm happy with what I am doing and where I am at.
The whole thing about me wanting nothing but a career has changed to. Example: "I have never really thought of settling down and starting a family. I have thought nothing, but about school and starting my career." This statement has definitely changed. It was halfway a lie at the time and it is not completely true now. I see now that work is not life. In college it was easy for me to be that way. I knew why I was there, I knew what I wanted, but other things always found their way into my world. Work does not equal happiness. I guess I thought I could have one or the other... love or a career... hopefully one day I can find both. I can have my cake and eat it too. It doesn't have to be in any order.
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Working mornings hasn't been too bad. I just finished some oatmeal... which tastes much better than it looks and we are getting ready to do our last cut-in. I don't mind filling in for people and I might go as far as to say that I like it. I am thrilled that the two newest employees have been so quick at learning. Go you guys!
What I don't like is driving the Jimmy without heat. If you see me in my van over the next couple of days it is because the Jimmy is in the shop. The defrost works, but it only blows out luke warm air and its like the heat is working, but when the blowers are on it blows out cold air unless your hand is directly on the vent. Everyone says that it is probably my heater core... which is going to cost about $100 (or so I am told)... so I suppose that it could be worse. I'm keeping my fingers crossed that it is a $5 thermostat.
Things are good in life... I hope it keeps it up!!!
Anyway, no matter what the reasons I am here... for now...
I was reading through some of my old LJ posts and it amazes me how much I have changed in the years since I have used this. Don't get me wrong, I still have goals, but I don't feel as rushed as I once did. I am learning to go with the flow for once. Its a refreshing thing to not lie awake at night and try to figure my entire life out before I fall asleep. I'm not in Cali, Chicago, or NYC and that's fine with me. It isn't that I have given up those options, I am just enjoying what I am doing now. Maybe I'll never be there, and that's fine as long as I'm happy with what I am doing and where I am at.
The whole thing about me wanting nothing but a career has changed to. Example: "I have never really thought of settling down and starting a family. I have thought nothing, but about school and starting my career." This statement has definitely changed. It was halfway a lie at the time and it is not completely true now. I see now that work is not life. In college it was easy for me to be that way. I knew why I was there, I knew what I wanted, but other things always found their way into my world. Work does not equal happiness. I guess I thought I could have one or the other... love or a career... hopefully one day I can find both. I can have my cake and eat it too. It doesn't have to be in any order.
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Working mornings hasn't been too bad. I just finished some oatmeal... which tastes much better than it looks and we are getting ready to do our last cut-in. I don't mind filling in for people and I might go as far as to say that I like it. I am thrilled that the two newest employees have been so quick at learning. Go you guys!
What I don't like is driving the Jimmy without heat. If you see me in my van over the next couple of days it is because the Jimmy is in the shop. The defrost works, but it only blows out luke warm air and its like the heat is working, but when the blowers are on it blows out cold air unless your hand is directly on the vent. Everyone says that it is probably my heater core... which is going to cost about $100 (or so I am told)... so I suppose that it could be worse. I'm keeping my fingers crossed that it is a $5 thermostat.
Things are good in life... I hope it keeps it up!!!