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I don't really like bars.
So why do I keep going to them?
A part of me longs to meet other people and make friends. When I get there though, I can never find it in myself to go and talk to those other people. I don't really approve of bars in general, because they've always seemed seedy to me. Unsafe as well. But I still keep going back, spending money I shouldn't really be spending in the first place.
I just want to meet people my own age. I've always had a problem socializing, and I don't know why. I wish I knew where to look to for help. Or if there was a book out there that could help me. I latch onto some people and hope to meet friends through them instead of finding new friends myself. I feel helpless sometimes.
I don't mean to sound emo or pathetic. I just wish I could find it within myself to talk to strangers, and make friends with them.
I wish I knew what was holding me back.
So why do I keep going to them?
A part of me longs to meet other people and make friends. When I get there though, I can never find it in myself to go and talk to those other people. I don't really approve of bars in general, because they've always seemed seedy to me. Unsafe as well. But I still keep going back, spending money I shouldn't really be spending in the first place.
I just want to meet people my own age. I've always had a problem socializing, and I don't know why. I wish I knew where to look to for help. Or if there was a book out there that could help me. I latch onto some people and hope to meet friends through them instead of finding new friends myself. I feel helpless sometimes.
I don't mean to sound emo or pathetic. I just wish I could find it within myself to talk to strangers, and make friends with them.
I wish I knew what was holding me back.