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So, here I am. Two years later. Sitting in a freshly painted room, listening to Brahms, with a freshly minted Bachelors degree.
I saw a girl the other night. Two years ago, I told her I had a crush on her and that i'd like to take her out. I bailed on the date, and we never had one. She married an army guy, and have been together now for about a year and a half. If I hadn't have skipped the date, it might have been me instead of him. Am I jealous? I'd be lying if I said no. It's been such a long time since i've been in a serious relationship. I've had my fun, but nothing truly serious.
I know there isn't anything wrong with me. Well, nothing that would prevent me from finding someone. I have made my share of mistakes, but i'm learning from them too. I'd like to think that im a pretty smart guy. Bit of a sarcastic streak, but nothing serious. I've got some pooch around the midsection, but am good looking in spite of it. I've got ambition. Hell, im going to be traveling the world in less than a year. Flying abroad to some foreign land, taking in the local scenery and meeting all the important people. I work hard. I motivated my family to stop procrastinating (they've been talking about it for over a year), and got all of us to paint. I only drink on occasion, and I don't smoke. I love sports, reading, and the arts. I'm a caring listener, and I love to be close with my friends. I'm not afraid to get dirty when the occasion calls for it. I love to have dinner by candlelight, and enjoy exotic wines while eating homemade spaghetti. I want to raise a large, close, and happy family. I want to give my children a well rounded education by having them go to schools abroad while the family travels. I love to learn, and to think about complicated things...
I could write more, but that would just be self indulgence. The point im getting at is:
Why haven't I found anyone to settle down with yet? A better way to phrase that would be...why haven't I had that special someone walk into my life that im supposed to be with? Its a bit presumptuous of me to even be saying that, I know. I am only 22 and have a whole life of excitement ahead of me. It's just...my heart is a bit lonely. I stare at the ceiling sometimes, wondering what person God has in store for me. Tall, or short? Skinny, or more to love? Dark or light haired? Things like that. I know that there is someone that is being prepared to meet me and click with me just as I am with her. All the experiences I am going through are part of that. I'm learning and growing, so that I can be the man i'm supposed to be.
I'm just impatient sometimes. Especially since I know what that kind of love feels like.
I've been so busy all week. I'm really tired, even when I wake up. Im going to start looking for a job on Monday. Probably start with the law offices in town...
I saw a girl the other night. Two years ago, I told her I had a crush on her and that i'd like to take her out. I bailed on the date, and we never had one. She married an army guy, and have been together now for about a year and a half. If I hadn't have skipped the date, it might have been me instead of him. Am I jealous? I'd be lying if I said no. It's been such a long time since i've been in a serious relationship. I've had my fun, but nothing truly serious.
I know there isn't anything wrong with me. Well, nothing that would prevent me from finding someone. I have made my share of mistakes, but i'm learning from them too. I'd like to think that im a pretty smart guy. Bit of a sarcastic streak, but nothing serious. I've got some pooch around the midsection, but am good looking in spite of it. I've got ambition. Hell, im going to be traveling the world in less than a year. Flying abroad to some foreign land, taking in the local scenery and meeting all the important people. I work hard. I motivated my family to stop procrastinating (they've been talking about it for over a year), and got all of us to paint. I only drink on occasion, and I don't smoke. I love sports, reading, and the arts. I'm a caring listener, and I love to be close with my friends. I'm not afraid to get dirty when the occasion calls for it. I love to have dinner by candlelight, and enjoy exotic wines while eating homemade spaghetti. I want to raise a large, close, and happy family. I want to give my children a well rounded education by having them go to schools abroad while the family travels. I love to learn, and to think about complicated things...
I could write more, but that would just be self indulgence. The point im getting at is:
Why haven't I found anyone to settle down with yet? A better way to phrase that would be...why haven't I had that special someone walk into my life that im supposed to be with? Its a bit presumptuous of me to even be saying that, I know. I am only 22 and have a whole life of excitement ahead of me. It's just...my heart is a bit lonely. I stare at the ceiling sometimes, wondering what person God has in store for me. Tall, or short? Skinny, or more to love? Dark or light haired? Things like that. I know that there is someone that is being prepared to meet me and click with me just as I am with her. All the experiences I am going through are part of that. I'm learning and growing, so that I can be the man i'm supposed to be.
I'm just impatient sometimes. Especially since I know what that kind of love feels like.
I've been so busy all week. I'm really tired, even when I wake up. Im going to start looking for a job on Monday. Probably start with the law offices in town...