I'm overwhelmed with guilt.
I want to lay in bed all day and cry.
I feel like rolling over and dying.

Fuck this.

I don't know what to do.

I need to start taking my meds, regular doses on a regular basis. I will feel like shit/crazy less often. I'm not sure why I do it to myself; perhaps my masochistic side sometimes defeats the sane side and it makes me stop taking the meds when things start to get too close to normal ( Read more... )

I don't know how to describe what I'm feeling, so I won't bother trying ( Read more... )

Why, hello everyone.

My life has now sunk to a ...

BRAND NEW LOW.

I AM STUPID.

I DO STUPID THINGS.

IT IS FUNNY.

PLEASE LAUGH AT MY EXPENSE.

MY HANDS ARE SHAKING.

Today sucked ( Read more... )

I feel that I should commemorate this occasion with an LJ entry ( Read more... )

Suffice it to say that since my last public post, I have been more mentally, physically, and emotionally exhausted than I have been in my entire life ( Read more... )

I am taking time out for self-pity. I apologize in advance, because I hate people who do this ( Read more... )

It's almost 6 AM, and I must take a break from this paper before my brain explodes. I’ve been alternating between writing this fucker, doing an astronomy lab, and reading a book on the gender differences of the pre-columbian eastern north american tribes. My thoughts are all over the chart here ( Read more... )

I'm sitting here waiting for the goddam registrars from Williamsburg and James City County to call me back, because I can't finish this article until they do, and I'm not about to print hearsay (even though I know it's true), and so I can't leave the room to get some food even though I'm starving to death because I can't miss their calls; I guess I ( Read more... )