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for some reason... i feel like the avenues of my life are coming to a close
everything is ending... and nothing is beginning
nothing is new, nothing is exciting
and the old comforts i used to have are either gone or about to be gone
the people i once relied on have vanished
the people i DO rely on are about to
is it my luck? or is it just me? am i that insufferable of a person that i drive everyone away? or is it life just running it's course? i mean... things dont stay the same forever and people tend to grow apart.
i would like to think im a pleasant person... but it could be that the opposite is true and i dont realize it yet. and even if i do... would i really change?
i wish i could find that one person to makes my heart skip a beat and who would do anything for me.
i thought i had him... but i do not. he does not feel the same about me though we talk every day. maybe things will be what they once were... maybe not. who knows
but, i DO have my whole life to look for "that person". is there really ONE person you can share your life with? maybe it doesnt really exist and it's all in the head of the person searching.
i guess im raising more questions than answers.
i miss you terrence. i really do. you're not just the guy i turn to if there is nobody else... i care for you so much!! but, well, i guess i have worn you down. im sorry. im a lot to handle i guess
so, maybe you're not the right person for me... im just blinded by the present and not looking toward the future
c'est la vie
everything is ending... and nothing is beginning
nothing is new, nothing is exciting
and the old comforts i used to have are either gone or about to be gone
the people i once relied on have vanished
the people i DO rely on are about to
is it my luck? or is it just me? am i that insufferable of a person that i drive everyone away? or is it life just running it's course? i mean... things dont stay the same forever and people tend to grow apart.
i would like to think im a pleasant person... but it could be that the opposite is true and i dont realize it yet. and even if i do... would i really change?
i wish i could find that one person to makes my heart skip a beat and who would do anything for me.
i thought i had him... but i do not. he does not feel the same about me though we talk every day. maybe things will be what they once were... maybe not. who knows
but, i DO have my whole life to look for "that person". is there really ONE person you can share your life with? maybe it doesnt really exist and it's all in the head of the person searching.
i guess im raising more questions than answers.
i miss you terrence. i really do. you're not just the guy i turn to if there is nobody else... i care for you so much!! but, well, i guess i have worn you down. im sorry. im a lot to handle i guess
so, maybe you're not the right person for me... im just blinded by the present and not looking toward the future
c'est la vie