nothing new
nothing exciting has really happened to me
i havent gotten into any trouble
no drinking as of late (though hopefully that will change tonight!)
and um... yeah. nothing
josh works with me now. at first i was regretting it cuse he was kind of acting like a prick, but it seems he's getting nicer now. maybe it's just me. i dunno.
i still hate work. now the force me to help ismael with the stuff that i used to do BY MYSELF. i guess they're making me do it now since i refused to do it voluntarily. im not going to help him do something EXTREMELY simple, when i got no help with it myself. so um... fuck off. lol
desire is trying to cheat on her boy toy. when i was watching kaitlyn on tuesday, des tried to get me to go with her to dayton ohio to meet some guy she "met" on a phone dating service. he's 23 and still a virgin. obviously, something is wrong there. but, she is willing to fuck up things with ricky just to go fuck some 23 year old virgin she's never met. ugh
oh well... not like things arent fucked up in that relationship anyway. ricky wants to fuck me... i mean REALLY wants to. i know because he told me and even DESIRE told me. for some reason, he's stupid enough to tell his gf that he wants to fuck her friends.
next weekend im supposed to be going back to indiana. dunno how that will be though. hopefully josh will come with me and protect me. lol. i promised to protect him from desire this week (cuse she totally wants to jump him!) - so he needs to come with me and protect me from ricky. heh.
lately i feel like a throw away friend. like, im there when people need me and that's it. im not first priority, im just there when there's nothing else to do and nobody else around. i hate feeling like that... but maybe it's the truth? do i honestly have friends that would like nothing more than to just spend the day with me and me alone? i dont think so... normally my friends need at least one other person around when they hang out with me. am i that boring? i'm never the first one called... im the last. mostly an afterthought.
maybe i hang out with the wrong people? i dont know.
i havent gotten into any trouble
no drinking as of late (though hopefully that will change tonight!)
and um... yeah. nothing
josh works with me now. at first i was regretting it cuse he was kind of acting like a prick, but it seems he's getting nicer now. maybe it's just me. i dunno.
i still hate work. now the force me to help ismael with the stuff that i used to do BY MYSELF. i guess they're making me do it now since i refused to do it voluntarily. im not going to help him do something EXTREMELY simple, when i got no help with it myself. so um... fuck off. lol
desire is trying to cheat on her boy toy. when i was watching kaitlyn on tuesday, des tried to get me to go with her to dayton ohio to meet some guy she "met" on a phone dating service. he's 23 and still a virgin. obviously, something is wrong there. but, she is willing to fuck up things with ricky just to go fuck some 23 year old virgin she's never met. ugh
oh well... not like things arent fucked up in that relationship anyway. ricky wants to fuck me... i mean REALLY wants to. i know because he told me and even DESIRE told me. for some reason, he's stupid enough to tell his gf that he wants to fuck her friends.
next weekend im supposed to be going back to indiana. dunno how that will be though. hopefully josh will come with me and protect me. lol. i promised to protect him from desire this week (cuse she totally wants to jump him!) - so he needs to come with me and protect me from ricky. heh.
lately i feel like a throw away friend. like, im there when people need me and that's it. im not first priority, im just there when there's nothing else to do and nobody else around. i hate feeling like that... but maybe it's the truth? do i honestly have friends that would like nothing more than to just spend the day with me and me alone? i dont think so... normally my friends need at least one other person around when they hang out with me. am i that boring? i'm never the first one called... im the last. mostly an afterthought.
maybe i hang out with the wrong people? i dont know.