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Wow, so the dance world is slowly starting to take its toll on me. I had a minor breakdown lastnight and then i had one today after ballet class, and i just started crying. i just feel like im working so hard in class and its not going anywhere, I mean it is but i just feel like it isnt. Plus having the teacher say my name every other two words didnt help at all, but the big thing was when she mentioned that she feels as if im not dancing up to her full expectations of my dancing skills which i felt i was soo on in class today. i need to learn to not take thi personally because the teachers tell us that, if we do then there is something wrong, and its true i just need to develop a hard exterior.
I mean its not like the teacher doesnt like me, its just that i feel she reallly likes me and she wants me to be this incredible being. im trying so hard to be this "thing" and i just feel like its not going anywhere. I think everyone at school is starting to breakdown. I mean we are all tired and stressed and our bodies are screaming and we hardly get breaks. i geuss thats what i got into being enrolled in a conservatory.
I just hope things will look up. Being 18 now doesnt help the situation at all either. Im basically an adult now and that thought scares the shit out of me. ::sigh:: My b-day was okcould have been better but i cant complain because i have been on this earth for 18 years now. I got good presents though.
So io geuss thats all for now, i hope life is treating you all well.
<3
Mj
I mean its not like the teacher doesnt like me, its just that i feel she reallly likes me and she wants me to be this incredible being. im trying so hard to be this "thing" and i just feel like its not going anywhere. I think everyone at school is starting to breakdown. I mean we are all tired and stressed and our bodies are screaming and we hardly get breaks. i geuss thats what i got into being enrolled in a conservatory.
I just hope things will look up. Being 18 now doesnt help the situation at all either. Im basically an adult now and that thought scares the shit out of me. ::sigh:: My b-day was okcould have been better but i cant complain because i have been on this earth for 18 years now. I got good presents though.
So io geuss thats all for now, i hope life is treating you all well.
<3
Mj