What a fucking drip!!!!!!!!!
DoTheDew1437: hey
Grlwindifference: hi
DoTheDew1437: how r u
Grlwindifference: good
Grlwindifference: how about yourself?
DoTheDew1437: thts good im doing ok
DoTheDew1437: i know u probably hate me still
Grlwindifference: i dont hate anybody
Grlwindifference: i am disipointed in you
DoTheDew1437: i know u r
DoTheDew1437: an i am mad at myself b/c u reall did love me
Grlwindifference: yeah well, nothing lasts forever
DoTheDew1437: yeah an tht was a mistake for me 2 do
Grlwindifference: everybody makes mistakes, all we have to do is learn from them
DoTheDew1437: yeah i learned tht i still love even though i hurt u
Grlwindifference: its not the first time ive been hurt
Grlwindifference: now, hurt in that way, yeah that was a first
DoTheDew1437: yeah an i felt bad tho whole night an i should have
Grlwindifference: yeah
DoTheDew1437: i need 2 know something
Grlwindifference: shoot
DoTheDew1437: do u still have feelings for me
Grlwindifference: now think to yourself
Grlwindifference: should i?
DoTheDew1437: eventhough i did hurt u u do know tht i still love u an tht i made a mistake
Grlwindifference: yes, i know that, but i think it is a little late to say that
Grlwindifference: suprising that it took you 4 months to realize that
DoTheDew1437: i did realize it like a week later an i wanted 2 tlk 2 u but i didnt want u 2 yell at me for screwing up
Grlwindifference: i wouldnt have yelled at you
Grlwindifference: im not yelling now...not that you could hear me or anything
DoTheDew1437: yeah
DoTheDew1437: but in the voicemail u left u said u wanted 2 kill me
Grlwindifference: haha
DoTheDew1437: what
Grlwindifference: yeah, but did i yell......a lot?
DoTheDew1437: yeah
DoTheDew1437: well not really
Grlwindifference: what i said was out of anger
Grlwindifference: i was hurt
DoTheDew1437: yeah an i was hurt 2 b/c i wasnt thinking
Grlwindifference: yeah you were
Grlwindifference: you just wernt thinking about the right or moral thing to do
DoTheDew1437: yeah an i was looking forward 2 tht night but i just screwed up
Grlwindifference: you kissed another girl, you cheated, i think you screwing up is a slight understatement
DoTheDew1437: yeah
Grlwindifference: why did you take me?
DoTheDew1437: b/c i didnt wanna tell u tht i wanted 2 go with another girl an i just didnt think
Grlwindifference: it would have worked out better if you did
DoTheDew1437: an i wouldnt have hurt u
Grlwindifference: yeah you wouldnt, or at least as much
DoTheDew1437: yea
Grlwindifference: i am very resourceful, i would have found something else to do
Grlwindifference: or i could have gone to my own
DoTheDew1437: yeah i didnt think of tht an thts why i feel like a screwup
Grlwindifference: thats what made me feel the worst, is that i left my friends for you and you...lied
DoTheDew1437: yeah
Grlwindifference: you keep saying yeah
Grlwindifference: give me justification
Grlwindifference: what were you thinking that night?
Grlwindifference: what was going through your head?
Grlwindifference: i want to know why you did what you did
Grlwindifference: what was in it for you?
DoTheDew1437: tht i still loevd u an i do now an tht i wanted 2 just run after u
Grlwindifference: was it sex? was is another relationship? was it some morbid joke?
Grlwindifference: but you didnt
Grlwindifference: that is also what hurt
DoTheDew1437: it wasnt for anything i wanted 2 see if our realtionship would have worked but i did it the wrong way
Grlwindifference: you wanted to see if our relationship would still work after you left me at a dance where i didnt know anybody and kissed another girl?
Grlwindifference: hmmm
DoTheDew1437: yeah i know i was stupid an i know u dont wanna tlk or see me again so its ok
Grlwindifference: i didnt say that
Grlwindifference: did i?
DoTheDew1437: no
DoTheDew1437: i just know u feel tht
Grlwindifference: you now feel that you love me? after saying it for about 11 months...now you feel it?
DoTheDew1437: i never have stopped loveing u thts what im saying
Grlwindifference: you said you didnt Mathew
Grlwindifference: you said that you didnt feel love between us
Grlwindifference: remember? right before i walked away?
DoTheDew1437: i didnt mean tht
Grlwindifference: then why did you say it?
DoTheDew1437: i was being stupid
Grlwindifference: give me another answer
DoTheDew1437: i wasnt thinkin of u i was thinking of myself whcih was stupid of me
Grlwindifference: no, you should think of yourself, what i wanna know is what about yourself you were thinking?
DoTheDew1437: i was thinking tht it was hard for me not 2 see u everyday
Grlwindifference: and thats why you wanted to break up?
DoTheDew1437: yeah but then a week later i didnt care if u lived 30 mins or whetever away
Grlwindifference: whey didnt you call then?
DoTheDew1437: i didnt know if u were gonna yell at me of not
Grlwindifference: you didnt save whatever you had left, because you didnt want me to yell at you?
DoTheDew1437: unfortunattly
Grlwindifference: you would have saved everything...do you see? EVERYTHING if you had just called me, and if you had faced the music, if you had been honest
Grlwindifference: that night, i wanted to punch you harder than i have ever punched anybody
Grlwindifference: i wanted to knock you out
DoTheDew1437: i know u did an i dont blame u
Grlwindifference: why did you kiss her? why did you want to be with her?
DoTheDew1437: b/c i thought i could have had something better but believe me i was so wrong
Grlwindifference: what was it that she gave out that i didnt?
DoTheDew1437: not a damn thing
DoTheDew1437: i wasnt happy with her an i was hurt the whole time
Grlwindifference: how? how were you hurt?
DoTheDew1437: b/c i knew tht i had hurt u
Grlwindifference: so? you had another girl
DoTheDew1437: yeah but i had been with u for so long an i srewed tht up b/c i wasnt thinking i was being stupid
Grlwindifference: no, you were thinking
DoTheDew1437: i wasnt thinking bout ur feelings tho which pissed me off tht week
Grlwindifference: what were your feelings?
Grlwindifference: i want to know why you did what you did
Grlwindifference: what you were thinking 2 days before when you started seeing kate
Grlwindifference: what you were thinking the night of your homecoming game when she wore your jersey
Grlwindifference: what you were thinking when i meet you at the resteraunt and on the way to the dance
DoTheDew1437: b/c i thought i would be happier being able 2 see someone everyday but i was wrong
Grlwindifference: how were you wrong?
DoTheDew1437: b/c i wasnt happy she dumed me on my 18th birthday an i knew u wouldnt do something like tht
Grlwindifference: your rightg
DoTheDew1437: yeah
DoTheDew1437: so just tell me u dont wanna see me again an ill leave u alone
Grlwindifference: i do want to see you again
DoTheDew1437: why do u wanna see me again
Grlwindifference: because, i want you to see what you did
DoTheDew1437: what do u mean
Grlwindifference: everytime something happens to a person, they become wiser, their senses become keener
Grlwindifference: with every experience come new knoledge
DoTheDew1437: yeah an im sure ur with someone so i except tht
Grlwindifference: that reflects on a person both in their apperance and in their personality
Grlwindifference: nope
DoTheDew1437: ur not
Grlwindifference: no
DoTheDew1437: :-\
Grlwindifference: tried, didnt work out, not happy
DoTheDew1437: were u happy with me
Grlwindifference: yes
DoTheDew1437: :'(
Grlwindifference: your smiley is leaking
DoTheDew1437: yeah b/c im sad
Grlwindifference: you should be
DoTheDew1437: i never had stopped
Grlwindifference: why?
DoTheDew1437: b/c i still love u
Grlwindifference: why did you wait 4 months to tell me this?
DoTheDew1437: b/c i thought u would have found someone better for u
DoTheDew1437: i thought for soooo long tht i wanted 2 be with u
Grlwindifference: and now?
DoTheDew1437: hehe yeah i do now 2
DoTheDew1437: an just so u know i have changed alot mentally 2
Grlwindifference: you mean you actually can think logically now?
DoTheDew1437: yeah
DoTheDew1437: i can
Grlwindifference: well i guess there is a first for everything
DoTheDew1437: an i really wanna see u since u still do
Grlwindifference: why do you wanna see me?
DoTheDew1437: b/c ur the one i wanna be with b/c u really made me happy u know how 2 treat an i felt like i ment something 2 someone
Grlwindifference: you did
DoTheDew1437: yeah
DoTheDew1437: i did
DoTheDew1437: but im sure theres not chance so i just expect tht
Grlwindifference: no youll find someone
Grlwindifference: everybody does
DoTheDew1437: i knew ud never wanna be with me again
Grlwindifference: unless you do something remarkable like save the world from total distruction then no
DoTheDew1437: i didnt think so
DoTheDew1437: even if we tried again
Grlwindifference: your cute
DoTheDew1437: lol why
Grlwindifference: because you are desperate
DoTheDew1437: im not desperate i just wanna know tht im with someone tht cares about me as much as u
Grlwindifference: you will someday, wether if it is me or not
Grlwindifference: i cannot see the future, maybe we will get back together maybe we wont
DoTheDew1437: yeah
Grlwindifference: if you still wanna see me, we can get together, as aquaintences
DoTheDew1437: yea
Grlwindifference: but i must tell you, by law, to wear a mouth guard
DoTheDew1437: why
Grlwindifference: or a cup, maybe both
Grlwindifference: because, that night, i didnt punch you because i was dressed as a lady, so i was gunna act like a lady
Grlwindifference: now, it is very much a possiblity that i wont knock your lights out
Grlwindifference: but just so you know, i still have a slight twitch in my arm
DoTheDew1437: oh i see
Grlwindifference: im gald
Grlwindifference: glad*
Grlwindifference: now we are on the same page
DoTheDew1437: i bet
Grlwindifference: so
DoTheDew1437: yeah
Grlwindifference: do you still want to see me?
DoTheDew1437: yeah
Grlwindifference: alright
DoTheDew1437: do u still wanna see me eventhough u cant hug or kiss me
Grlwindifference: i think i can live without
DoTheDew1437: ok
Grlwindifference: hi
DoTheDew1437: how r u
Grlwindifference: good
Grlwindifference: how about yourself?
DoTheDew1437: thts good im doing ok
DoTheDew1437: i know u probably hate me still
Grlwindifference: i dont hate anybody
Grlwindifference: i am disipointed in you
DoTheDew1437: i know u r
DoTheDew1437: an i am mad at myself b/c u reall did love me
Grlwindifference: yeah well, nothing lasts forever
DoTheDew1437: yeah an tht was a mistake for me 2 do
Grlwindifference: everybody makes mistakes, all we have to do is learn from them
DoTheDew1437: yeah i learned tht i still love even though i hurt u
Grlwindifference: its not the first time ive been hurt
Grlwindifference: now, hurt in that way, yeah that was a first
DoTheDew1437: yeah an i felt bad tho whole night an i should have
Grlwindifference: yeah
DoTheDew1437: i need 2 know something
Grlwindifference: shoot
DoTheDew1437: do u still have feelings for me
Grlwindifference: now think to yourself
Grlwindifference: should i?
DoTheDew1437: eventhough i did hurt u u do know tht i still love u an tht i made a mistake
Grlwindifference: yes, i know that, but i think it is a little late to say that
Grlwindifference: suprising that it took you 4 months to realize that
DoTheDew1437: i did realize it like a week later an i wanted 2 tlk 2 u but i didnt want u 2 yell at me for screwing up
Grlwindifference: i wouldnt have yelled at you
Grlwindifference: im not yelling now...not that you could hear me or anything
DoTheDew1437: yeah
DoTheDew1437: but in the voicemail u left u said u wanted 2 kill me
Grlwindifference: haha
DoTheDew1437: what
Grlwindifference: yeah, but did i yell......a lot?
DoTheDew1437: yeah
DoTheDew1437: well not really
Grlwindifference: what i said was out of anger
Grlwindifference: i was hurt
DoTheDew1437: yeah an i was hurt 2 b/c i wasnt thinking
Grlwindifference: yeah you were
Grlwindifference: you just wernt thinking about the right or moral thing to do
DoTheDew1437: yeah an i was looking forward 2 tht night but i just screwed up
Grlwindifference: you kissed another girl, you cheated, i think you screwing up is a slight understatement
DoTheDew1437: yeah
Grlwindifference: why did you take me?
DoTheDew1437: b/c i didnt wanna tell u tht i wanted 2 go with another girl an i just didnt think
Grlwindifference: it would have worked out better if you did
DoTheDew1437: an i wouldnt have hurt u
Grlwindifference: yeah you wouldnt, or at least as much
DoTheDew1437: yea
Grlwindifference: i am very resourceful, i would have found something else to do
Grlwindifference: or i could have gone to my own
DoTheDew1437: yeah i didnt think of tht an thts why i feel like a screwup
Grlwindifference: thats what made me feel the worst, is that i left my friends for you and you...lied
DoTheDew1437: yeah
Grlwindifference: you keep saying yeah
Grlwindifference: give me justification
Grlwindifference: what were you thinking that night?
Grlwindifference: what was going through your head?
Grlwindifference: i want to know why you did what you did
Grlwindifference: what was in it for you?
DoTheDew1437: tht i still loevd u an i do now an tht i wanted 2 just run after u
Grlwindifference: was it sex? was is another relationship? was it some morbid joke?
Grlwindifference: but you didnt
Grlwindifference: that is also what hurt
DoTheDew1437: it wasnt for anything i wanted 2 see if our realtionship would have worked but i did it the wrong way
Grlwindifference: you wanted to see if our relationship would still work after you left me at a dance where i didnt know anybody and kissed another girl?
Grlwindifference: hmmm
DoTheDew1437: yeah i know i was stupid an i know u dont wanna tlk or see me again so its ok
Grlwindifference: i didnt say that
Grlwindifference: did i?
DoTheDew1437: no
DoTheDew1437: i just know u feel tht
Grlwindifference: you now feel that you love me? after saying it for about 11 months...now you feel it?
DoTheDew1437: i never have stopped loveing u thts what im saying
Grlwindifference: you said you didnt Mathew
Grlwindifference: you said that you didnt feel love between us
Grlwindifference: remember? right before i walked away?
DoTheDew1437: i didnt mean tht
Grlwindifference: then why did you say it?
DoTheDew1437: i was being stupid
Grlwindifference: give me another answer
DoTheDew1437: i wasnt thinkin of u i was thinking of myself whcih was stupid of me
Grlwindifference: no, you should think of yourself, what i wanna know is what about yourself you were thinking?
DoTheDew1437: i was thinking tht it was hard for me not 2 see u everyday
Grlwindifference: and thats why you wanted to break up?
DoTheDew1437: yeah but then a week later i didnt care if u lived 30 mins or whetever away
Grlwindifference: whey didnt you call then?
DoTheDew1437: i didnt know if u were gonna yell at me of not
Grlwindifference: you didnt save whatever you had left, because you didnt want me to yell at you?
DoTheDew1437: unfortunattly
Grlwindifference: you would have saved everything...do you see? EVERYTHING if you had just called me, and if you had faced the music, if you had been honest
Grlwindifference: that night, i wanted to punch you harder than i have ever punched anybody
Grlwindifference: i wanted to knock you out
DoTheDew1437: i know u did an i dont blame u
Grlwindifference: why did you kiss her? why did you want to be with her?
DoTheDew1437: b/c i thought i could have had something better but believe me i was so wrong
Grlwindifference: what was it that she gave out that i didnt?
DoTheDew1437: not a damn thing
DoTheDew1437: i wasnt happy with her an i was hurt the whole time
Grlwindifference: how? how were you hurt?
DoTheDew1437: b/c i knew tht i had hurt u
Grlwindifference: so? you had another girl
DoTheDew1437: yeah but i had been with u for so long an i srewed tht up b/c i wasnt thinking i was being stupid
Grlwindifference: no, you were thinking
DoTheDew1437: i wasnt thinking bout ur feelings tho which pissed me off tht week
Grlwindifference: what were your feelings?
Grlwindifference: i want to know why you did what you did
Grlwindifference: what you were thinking 2 days before when you started seeing kate
Grlwindifference: what you were thinking the night of your homecoming game when she wore your jersey
Grlwindifference: what you were thinking when i meet you at the resteraunt and on the way to the dance
DoTheDew1437: b/c i thought i would be happier being able 2 see someone everyday but i was wrong
Grlwindifference: how were you wrong?
DoTheDew1437: b/c i wasnt happy she dumed me on my 18th birthday an i knew u wouldnt do something like tht
Grlwindifference: your rightg
DoTheDew1437: yeah
DoTheDew1437: so just tell me u dont wanna see me again an ill leave u alone
Grlwindifference: i do want to see you again
DoTheDew1437: why do u wanna see me again
Grlwindifference: because, i want you to see what you did
DoTheDew1437: what do u mean
Grlwindifference: everytime something happens to a person, they become wiser, their senses become keener
Grlwindifference: with every experience come new knoledge
DoTheDew1437: yeah an im sure ur with someone so i except tht
Grlwindifference: that reflects on a person both in their apperance and in their personality
Grlwindifference: nope
DoTheDew1437: ur not
Grlwindifference: no
DoTheDew1437: :-\
Grlwindifference: tried, didnt work out, not happy
DoTheDew1437: were u happy with me
Grlwindifference: yes
DoTheDew1437: :'(
Grlwindifference: your smiley is leaking
DoTheDew1437: yeah b/c im sad
Grlwindifference: you should be
DoTheDew1437: i never had stopped
Grlwindifference: why?
DoTheDew1437: b/c i still love u
Grlwindifference: why did you wait 4 months to tell me this?
DoTheDew1437: b/c i thought u would have found someone better for u
DoTheDew1437: i thought for soooo long tht i wanted 2 be with u
Grlwindifference: and now?
DoTheDew1437: hehe yeah i do now 2
DoTheDew1437: an just so u know i have changed alot mentally 2
Grlwindifference: you mean you actually can think logically now?
DoTheDew1437: yeah
DoTheDew1437: i can
Grlwindifference: well i guess there is a first for everything
DoTheDew1437: an i really wanna see u since u still do
Grlwindifference: why do you wanna see me?
DoTheDew1437: b/c ur the one i wanna be with b/c u really made me happy u know how 2 treat an i felt like i ment something 2 someone
Grlwindifference: you did
DoTheDew1437: yeah
DoTheDew1437: i did
DoTheDew1437: but im sure theres not chance so i just expect tht
Grlwindifference: no youll find someone
Grlwindifference: everybody does
DoTheDew1437: i knew ud never wanna be with me again
Grlwindifference: unless you do something remarkable like save the world from total distruction then no
DoTheDew1437: i didnt think so
DoTheDew1437: even if we tried again
Grlwindifference: your cute
DoTheDew1437: lol why
Grlwindifference: because you are desperate
DoTheDew1437: im not desperate i just wanna know tht im with someone tht cares about me as much as u
Grlwindifference: you will someday, wether if it is me or not
Grlwindifference: i cannot see the future, maybe we will get back together maybe we wont
DoTheDew1437: yeah
Grlwindifference: if you still wanna see me, we can get together, as aquaintences
DoTheDew1437: yea
Grlwindifference: but i must tell you, by law, to wear a mouth guard
DoTheDew1437: why
Grlwindifference: or a cup, maybe both
Grlwindifference: because, that night, i didnt punch you because i was dressed as a lady, so i was gunna act like a lady
Grlwindifference: now, it is very much a possiblity that i wont knock your lights out
Grlwindifference: but just so you know, i still have a slight twitch in my arm
DoTheDew1437: oh i see
Grlwindifference: im gald
Grlwindifference: glad*
Grlwindifference: now we are on the same page
DoTheDew1437: i bet
Grlwindifference: so
DoTheDew1437: yeah
Grlwindifference: do you still want to see me?
DoTheDew1437: yeah
Grlwindifference: alright
DoTheDew1437: do u still wanna see me eventhough u cant hug or kiss me
Grlwindifference: i think i can live without
DoTheDew1437: ok