poke me please
i wish there was a song i could cut and paste so i didn't have to write about it using my own words... maybe i'm lazy or maybe i'm just too tired to think.
if we could set out hearts free and love came flowing in~out, how wonderful would that be? took one of those stupid quizzes and it asked if i could have one wish what would it be... one of the options was world peace... one was for everyone to get along. along the same lines no doubt... i thought they were all retarded so i chose none... taking that test today i'd prolly choose the latter. go finger.
i'm in love with someone who lives across the country... she's wonderfully super, but my head tells me to break it off, it's too far, too soon, too much. if it was easy i wouldn't be pondering over it, and i've made a decision on what to do... this morning was so nice, and she seemed so sure... only to bring up her ex and their plan next month to see the butchies once again. it hurts not because she's her ex, jesus me and jenn are closer than anyone, but because she still cries over this person. i've been there, with sara, with C and things don't change, they just evolve and i know it's only a matter of time before she gets her heart crushed once again... i want to stand by her, support her, love her through everything... but i feel like it's useless. she says she doesn't have walls. she does. she says she isn't "in love". she is.
i hate that i'm still thinking about this. what i would do to have her in my arms. what i would say. ahhh fuck it. i'm a stupid dumb piece of crap who gives too much. loves too much. hopes too much. trusts too much.
FUCK THE PAIN AWAY...
if only there was someone worth fucking.
hmm...
sometimes people surprise me and i have been pleasantly in the past few days... no one knows, no one will, so don't ask.
my heart is the size of texas and from what jenn tells me, that's HUGE! everything, except the limit on sex toys, is huge in texas... i'm serious!
woot. woooooooooooooot!!!
::winkwink::
if we could set out hearts free and love came flowing in~out, how wonderful would that be? took one of those stupid quizzes and it asked if i could have one wish what would it be... one of the options was world peace... one was for everyone to get along. along the same lines no doubt... i thought they were all retarded so i chose none... taking that test today i'd prolly choose the latter. go finger.
i'm in love with someone who lives across the country... she's wonderfully super, but my head tells me to break it off, it's too far, too soon, too much. if it was easy i wouldn't be pondering over it, and i've made a decision on what to do... this morning was so nice, and she seemed so sure... only to bring up her ex and their plan next month to see the butchies once again. it hurts not because she's her ex, jesus me and jenn are closer than anyone, but because she still cries over this person. i've been there, with sara, with C and things don't change, they just evolve and i know it's only a matter of time before she gets her heart crushed once again... i want to stand by her, support her, love her through everything... but i feel like it's useless. she says she doesn't have walls. she does. she says she isn't "in love". she is.
i hate that i'm still thinking about this. what i would do to have her in my arms. what i would say. ahhh fuck it. i'm a stupid dumb piece of crap who gives too much. loves too much. hopes too much. trusts too much.
FUCK THE PAIN AWAY...
if only there was someone worth fucking.
hmm...
sometimes people surprise me and i have been pleasantly in the past few days... no one knows, no one will, so don't ask.
my heart is the size of texas and from what jenn tells me, that's HUGE! everything, except the limit on sex toys, is huge in texas... i'm serious!
woot. woooooooooooooot!!!
::winkwink::