Tired
Worked for two weeks straight. I'm getting sick. But show must go on. People are asking me to do fun things but I can't get the time off to do them. I'm extremely tired. I managed to get today off only because my boss wanted to work with the dude she's banging. I should have slept more. Problems are starting to crop up every where now. I feel like I'm a room mate not a girlfriend or lover here. That is horrible. I feel very unattractive and insecure but mostly unattractive. I do nothing but work and sleep. That is it . I tried to wear something nice and get attention the other day and was turned down. That's embarrassing. I know after too long I will do something stupid if I'm not going anywhere here. Hopefully work will keep me occupied enough to get me through feeling this way. I don't know what the hell is wrong. I'm tired but making an effort. Am I not worth making an effort also? It's not the end of the world but it is important. He used to touch me like I was the only person left on earth. Now we sit in separate places stating at screens. Maybe I'm delirious from non stop work but, something is wrong. And I don't know how to fix it.