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Help! I'm so lost! I've been taking an Intro to Education class and we just had a guest speaker who is one of the most phenomenal teachers I have ever seen - that's not much compared to most people since I've only had about twenty or so, but she was still amazing. When I'm in that class, I get so inspired to teach. I want to have a classroom where children are engaged, where they love to come and learn, where they have at least one small reason for liking school, and they can escape the mundane and frustrating world. I want to inspire and encourage, and be so much, but I have nothing I want to teach, and I never know what age I would want to teach! The first week I came in thinking that should I ever even become a teacher, I would teach kindergarten because I love small children. Then I decided that I couldn't because kindergarten is such a critical time when they are beginning their acadmeic career and I wouldn't want to mess that up (plus, I'd hate trying to teach Phonics). Then I wanted to teach high school students because they always hate school and I wanted to change that. I thought I'd teach Spanish (one subject I actually am passionate about) but my size discourages me (what high school student would not feel they could get away with anything in my class), and an American Asian teaching Spanish just seems odd to me. Then I wanted to teach middle school, and now third or fourth graders because you could do so many wonderful class activities with them and . . . I'm so indecisive! I want to teach and be creative and change lives and bring joy to classrooms, but I am scared of being responsible for their education, and I don't have a great interest in teaching science or history or english. I'm glad I don't have to figure this all out on my own (referencing God), but I kinda' wish I had an idea right now if I'm even meant to teach. I just want to go to Guatemala again and serve God there.