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[monique_]

I didn't get much sleep last night. I woke up around 3 to pee and then couldn't fall back to sleep. I just kept talking to myself and worrying about things. Then I got really thirsty and hungry and since I didn't want to keep wiggling around in bed in fear of waking up Ed, I got up and headed to the kitchen. I took a couple of gulps of juice from the bottle and then stood in front of the pantry staring blankly in. Nothing appealed to me except some fruit snacks (the gummy ones, sharks even!). I know, not exactly a nutritous snack but I needed to put something in my stomach or I would get nauseous and the peanut butter granola bar was not sounding appetizing at that point. So here it was 3:30 in the morning and I'm wide awake, so what do I do? Well what every American who's awake at that time does, check my email, lj and find something on the internet to entertain myself. After about an hour I realize I had better try to get some sleep or else I won't get any at all. So I creep back in bed trying not to stir Ed. I lay there. I lay there some more. My mind is just going over different crap. Thoughts of work creep into my brain. Dammit! I don't want to be stressed. Get out of my head! So I try to think about babies swimming. They're just so cute, all naked, swimming. That relaxes me and I start to fall into a sleep and then Ed's alarm goes off. Dammit it's 5:45 already?! He hits the snooze button and I try to fall back to sleep before it goes off again, because falling into a deep slumber in nine minutes is possible. The alarm goes off again. Ed fumbles to find the button. 'The snooze button's not working.' he says. Dammit! I roll over him and fiddle with it. And roll back. Wait is it off? Or is it on snooze? Ed is the indicator flashing? 'No' Dammit. It's off. I roll over him again 'cause Ed has no clue how to set this alarm even though we've had it for 8 years. I set it to go off one minute later to make sure it's working and roll back over. A minute goes by, the alarm goes off and he turns it off and gets up. Dammit why didn't you just get up a minute ago and I wouldn't have had to fiddle with it? So off to the shower he goes and I'm thinking I can fall asleep while he's in there and not have to wake up until 8am. No dice. After he's done and dressed he cames in and says 'Monique the dogs want you' Dammit! I'm trying to sleep.

So now I'm at work, tired and with a headache from lack of sleep. I wish I could dream of babies swimming right now. Maybe I can turn off the lights here in the office and no one will know.