wow I feel like shit...
Ok so here it is 1:38AM and I am sitting on the couch and posting to LJ... I got in bed at 10 and read for 30 mins and drifted off to sleep... Chris came over at 11ish and hopped in bed with me ... so yea we chatted and cuddled and whatnot for a while and then I lost it... I told him what has been bothering me for the past few days...
I told him that it didn't look like I would be here in September and that I didn't expect him to drop everything and go with me... I should have pointed that out at the beginning of the relationship... I mean I thought I made it quite clear that I didn't know where I would be cause of the school situation. Now however I think I am transfering no matter what... I have talked to alot of people about it and you know what... contrary to popular belief... I AM NOT A COUNTRY GIRL... I like my city just fine... I like having roads that I can drive a car on... I like being able to come and go as I please... I like privacy... I like chillaxin with my homedogs... I like being able to do things on the weekends that aren't darts, cards or bingo... I like being able to be me...
I am getting sick of small town life... I am feeling many emotions this week... Anger, rage, fear, angst... A little bit of everything... Anyway Chris only left a few minutes ago cause he was busy drying my tear and telling me he respects my decision...
He does now but will he in 5 months when I leave??
CONFUSED AND FRUSTRATED...
Cheers
MONIQUE
I told him that it didn't look like I would be here in September and that I didn't expect him to drop everything and go with me... I should have pointed that out at the beginning of the relationship... I mean I thought I made it quite clear that I didn't know where I would be cause of the school situation. Now however I think I am transfering no matter what... I have talked to alot of people about it and you know what... contrary to popular belief... I AM NOT A COUNTRY GIRL... I like my city just fine... I like having roads that I can drive a car on... I like being able to come and go as I please... I like privacy... I like chillaxin with my homedogs... I like being able to do things on the weekends that aren't darts, cards or bingo... I like being able to be me...
I am getting sick of small town life... I am feeling many emotions this week... Anger, rage, fear, angst... A little bit of everything... Anyway Chris only left a few minutes ago cause he was busy drying my tear and telling me he respects my decision...
He does now but will he in 5 months when I leave??
CONFUSED AND FRUSTRATED...
Cheers
MONIQUE