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Wishful Thinking (title pending) (chorus pending)
i'm not too sure what happened ( Read more... ) -
bridge
i guess i forgot to mention in my last entry... i went to crescent city with my aunt and 3 cousins... also my brother, and we stayed in a beach house. it was amazing. we spent two days at second bridge (swimming place on the river), and i jumped off the bridge! yes, i know, i'm a badass. it was over 200 feet high, and it hurt. it was basically like ( Read more... ) -
its been a while
well i haven't updated my journal in quite some time... mostly for fear that my parents would ransack it and misjudge everything that i have written again. but oh well if they do. so parents, if you are reading this... thats fine. do what you want. i know whats going on and that is all that really matters ( Read more... ) -
changed my mind
So forget everything that I just wrote. I changed my mind about one, three, and five. I'm still unsure about two beacuse I haven't really gotten to know him. But four... I'm pretty sure about that one. At least for now. I didn't really want just another 'fling' but what alternatives do I have? Although I wasn't expecting it, it is weird how I will ( Read more... ) -
dreams and heartbreak
Have you ever had a dream that repeated itself over and over every night? Or the the same person seemed to show up? Even if they had no purpose of being in your dream, they were just... there? Every night, he is there. I don't even know why. Maybe my subconscious is trying to tell me something. Could it be that I am still stuck on him? No... am I? ( Read more... ) -
filthy charmer (unknown date)
I'm forever and always here ( Read more... ) -
i guess you could call this an 'update'
Nothing at all has changed. The year is almost over and still nothing has happened. I can't believe it. Last year seemed to be so much more eventful. Something was always happening. This year has only had one or two 'big deals.' One was the double-o agent occurrence, the other was the aftermath of that occurence. Oh and I guess there was those ( Read more... ) -
Unknown date
I can only be content once I can come out of my shell again. I am shamelessly self-involved, maybe that is all that I'll ever be. Several parts of my being have changed in the past year, yet so many things have remained the same. My memories are all I have left, however, I can already feel them fading away. I've been searching for someone that will ( Read more... ) -
bitchy
Life is going okay as of right now. Nothing extra, nothing less. Just... there. I feel more and more like a bitch every day though. I don't even know why. Maybe because I am so unhappy with everything. I need somebody indifferent. Someone who will listen to me no matter what, yet still keep me in check. You know? It's so hard to find that these ( Read more... ) -
sinking
I have this horrible sinking feeling again. I do not even know why. It began last night. I started thinking of last year again. How much I miss it... This year is completely mediocre. I can't stand it, I need something to go on. Something to look forward to. Soon. And I really do miss Toni. So much it hurts. I really hope he comes back this winter.