It's Not You, It's Me - Chapter 9 (HoMin)
Title: It's Not You. It's Me.
Pairing: HoMin (Main), YunJae (Side)
Author: monick87
Length: 9/?
Genre: AU
Warnings: Unbeta'd, just a little angst, and bad smut
Rate: NC-17
Disclaimer: Inspired in the movie by the same name, but with twists.
Summary: Yunho meets Changmin, a young man that could be more than just friends with him...if only he could forget Jaejoong.
Chapter 9
mso-ansi-language:EN-US">After 20 minutes, Yunho finally arrived at the Hospital. He prayed for Sooyoung to be just fine. She had been like his older sister for the past years and that would never change for Yunho, no matter how things ended up with him and her brother.
mso-ansi-language:EN-US">He entered ER and looked for information about the girl. Fortunately, a nurse heard him ask and told him that she was in surgery and all her family was in the waiting room.
mso-ansi-language:EN-US">Yunho wasted no time in going there, running as he worried even more about his friend/ex-sister-in-law.
mso-ansi-language:EN-US">The moment he entered the waiting room, he felt all eyes on him. The Kim Family was there, looking at him with a mixture of confusion and relief in their eyes.
mso-ansi-language:EN-US">He was about to ask what exactly had happened when he felt arms around him, pulling him into a tight embrace. “Thank you for coming.” Yunho heard Jaejoong say against his neck as he sobbed.
mso-ansi-language:EN-US">Yunho’s body went rigid, and he didn’t know what to do. He knew Jaejoong needed support, needed for him to tell him everything was going to be ok, but it felt wrong in many ways.
mso-ansi-language:EN-US">“Everything’s going to be ok,” Yunho said, pushing Jaejoong slightly to have some space between them.
mso-ansi-language:EN-US">Jaejoong looked up at him with hurt in his eyes and nodded.
mso-ansi-language:EN-US">It was then when finally Yunho focused his attention on Jaejoong. It had been almost a year and a half since they had last seen each other, and Yunho thought he looked just the same as before, if it wasn’t for the fact that his hair was now longer and black.
mso-ansi-language:EN-US">“She’s on surgery, Yunho,” Jaejoong started, as they walked to take a seat on the couches. “It was right after she picked me up from the airport and left me in my parent’s house. A drunk guy…Gosh! If it wasn’t for me… she…” he said, trying not to cry.
mso-ansi-language:EN-US">Yunho bit his lower lip and patted him on the back. “It’s not your fault, ok? Don’t ever think this is because of you. Shit happens, Jaejoong. And there is no use in dwelling on bad things. What’s done it’s done and you can’t do anything about it. You must stay strong and do whatever you can for Sooyoung, for your family.”
mso-ansi-language:EN-US">Jaejoong smiled sadly. “Thank you, Yunho,” he said, looking down. “I’m really sorry for all the shit I put you through.”
mso-ansi-language:EN-US">“Don’t worry about it, Jae,” Yunho responded with a kind voice as he watched the distress in which his ex-lover was at the moment. “We should concentrate on Sooyoung’s health.”
mso-ansi-language:EN-US">Jaejoong nodded and both stayed silent for some minutes.
mso-ansi-language:EN-US">“Sooyoung told me you were dating someone, some days ago,” Jaejoong broke the silence. “She also told me that he’s gorgeous,” he added with a tone that Yunho couldn’t recognize.
mso-ansi-language:EN-US">“He is gorgeous, indeed,” Yunho affirmed, nodding in the process and smiling as he thought about coming back to sleep in Changmin’s arms as soon as he knew Sooyoung was ok.
mso-ansi-language:EN-US">“I’ve decided to come back to Korea, you know,” Jaejoong said, slightly changing the subject. “I’ve missed my country and the people…”
mso-ansi-language:EN-US">“Good for you,” Yunho commented, feeling a bit awkward about the whole conversation. He was partly glad that Jaejoong was back in Korea. He had sent some papers to him in Japan, and they had been lost, so the paperwork for their divorce would be definitely easier with Jaejoong near.
mso-ansi-language:EN-US">Yunho would be lying if he didn’t accept the fact that he was dying to ask about Jaejoong and Dr. Park, but he contained himself. He didn’t want Jaejoong or his family to have the wrong impression.
mso-ansi-language:EN-US">Yes, he had loved Jaejoong with all his might, and he was sure that Jaejoong would always have a special place in his life, but that didn’t mean he was still in love with him.
mso-ansi-language:EN-US">Yunho had realized now that he had faced Jaejoong, that his feelings for Changmin were true. They were strong and he was happy, even happier that he ever was with Jaejoong.
mso-ansi-language:EN-US">Suddenly, Yunho found himself in the middle of a conversation with the Kim’s for a couple of hours. The sun was threatening to go up, and a doctor had been coming out for the operating room to let them know how the surgery had been progressing from time to time. Sooyoung was stable now and she had had some ribs, an arm and a leg broken, but he was totally out of danger and if things progressed as they should, she would be able to get of the hospital in 3 weeks or so.
mso-ansi-language:EN-US">“Well, I gotta go now. I don’t want Min to be worried about me and I need some sleep,” Yunho commented, getting up and bowing at the whole family. “It’s been nice to see you all, and please tell Sooyoung that I’ll visit her soon.” He turned to leave when someone called his name.
mso-ansi-language:EN-US">“Yunho, I’m sorry to bother you, but…could you take Jaejoong and drop him in our house?” Mrs. Kim asked with a nervous smile and fidgeting with her blouse. “He’s been a little under the weather these days and I think he needs to rest a little,” she quickly added, as if trying to excuse herself.
mso-ansi-language:EN-US">Jaejoong shook his head. “Mom, I don’t think this is th-“
mso-ansi-language:EN-US">“It’s ok, Mrs. Kim. I’ll drop Jae off, so don’t worry,” Yunho said, interrupting Jaejoong. “C’mon,” he told his ex-lover before exiting the room.
mso-ansi-language:EN-US">They took the elevator and walked to the parking lot. Both entered Yunho’s gray car and he immediately started the engine.
mso-ansi-language:EN-US">Neither of them spoke a single word in the whole ride. It wasn’t that Yunho didn’t want to talk to Jaejoong, it was more likely he didn’t know what to talk to Jaejoong about. Yes, he wanted to talk about the divorce, but it wasn’t really the best time since he probably just wanted to get home and sleep. But, well, tomorrow is always another day.
mso-ansi-language:EN-US">“You know, you didn’t have to do this,” Jaejoong said as Yunho parked right in front of the Kim’s house.
mso-ansi-language:EN-US">“No problem, Jae. Now go get some rest so you can be there when Sooyoung wakes up,” Yunho responded with a smile and a pat on Jaejoong’s shoulder.
mso-ansi-language:EN-US">Jaejoong looked up at Yunho and locked their gazes. “I broke up with Yoochun,” he suddenly said.
mso-ansi-language:EN-US">“Well, I’m sor-“
mso-ansi-language:EN-US">“No,” Jaejoong cut Yunho off. “Don’t be sorry,” he added with a serious tone in his voice. “Look… I broke up with him because I realized how much I love you, Yunho.”
mso-ansi-language:EN-US">Yunho widened his eyes in surprise. He opened and closed his mouth a couple of times, trying to sink in what the hell was happening.
mso-ansi-language:EN-US">Jaejoong grabbed Yunho’s hand. “When my sister told me you were with someone else, and then your lawyer called about the divorce... I-I just realized how much you mean to me, Yunho. How much of a fool I had been,” he said as he desperately leaned onto the other man. “You are the reason why I decided to go back to Korea, because we should give ‘us’ another chance. And, I’m willing to do anything for you to forgive me, Yunho. I love you…I love you so so much.”
mso-ansi-language:EN-US">Yunho felt some familiar lips on his. It took him a few seconds to grasp what was happening: Jaejoong was kissing him. Those lips felt so wrong on his own, they felt cold and empty, and in his mind immediately flashed an image of Changmin, wearing that smile that he loved so much, eyes going mismatched and looking as gorgeous as the first day they met.
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mso-ansi-language:EN-US">Changmin woke up around noon, thanks to his headache. He sat on the bed and immediately regretted it as he felt dizzy and with the urge to puke. “I’m never drinking again,” he whispered as he looked around. He spotted his boyfriend standing in the doorway, with a glass of water in one hand, and some pills on the other.
mso-ansi-language:EN-US">“Here. Take these,” Yunho commanded, with worry in his voice and face. He handed his boyfriend the pills and water, and took a seat on the bed. “Rest a little so you can feel better soon.”
mso-ansi-language:EN-US">The student did as told. “Have you picked up Taepoong and Mangdoongie?” He asked, after not seeing both dogs step into the room and jump on the bed, wanting to make him get out of bed so he could play with them.
mso-ansi-language:EN-US">“No, they’re still at Junsu’s,” Yunho responded. They had left the dogs with Junsu while they moved into the new apartment until they were completely settled, or at least after the party was finished.
mso-ansi-language:EN-US">“Maybe we should go get them in a couple of hours, or at least until my hangover passes a little,” Changmin said, laying back again, closing his eyes and grunting at the pain in his head. “That Heechul is gonna suffer. I’ll make sure of that.”
mso-ansi-language:EN-US">A few seconds of silence passed and Changmin opened his eyes again, turning to look at Yunho, who looked anxious and worried. Immediately Changmin knew something was wrong. He was about to ask why Yunho was acting like that when Yunho beat him at it.
mso-ansi-language:EN-US">“Yesterday, after you fell asleep, I received a call,“ Yunho started, finally looking at his boyfriend in the eyes. “It was Jaejoong. He called me because Sooyoung, his sister, had a car accident…and I went… because I care for them, his family. They always treated me well, as a part of the family so I went to see how she was. But then, I was asked to drop Jaejoong off to their house because he was feeling bad…and he said that he loved me and he kissed me.”
mso-ansi-language:EN-US">Yunho stood there, waiting for Changmin to say something, anything. He was worried because now he saw that what he had done had been wrong. He couldn’t imagine how Changmin would feel to know that he sneaked out practically, to see the family of the person you used to love and above all, that said person kissed you.
mso-ansi-language:EN-US">Yunho prayed, he just prayed for Changmin to comprehend, for Changmin to not be mad at him. Because God knows if Changmin would have done something similar, he would have felt hurt and betrayed to some extent. But Yunho wanted to be honest with his boyfriend, no matter what. Honesty and communication were essential in any relationship and Yunho didn’t want to damage that. He preferred Changmin knowing because of him, and not because of someone else.
mso-ansi-language:EN-US">Changmin suddenly got up, and started to pick up his clothes, not even bothering to look at his boyfriend.
mso-ansi-language:EN-US">Fear and desperation started to take over Yunho slowly. “I swear I pushed him away from me and I immediately came home, Min. I love you and only you.”
mso-ansi-language:EN-US">Changmin finally turned to look at him, but Yunho would have preferred that he didn’t. He looked hurt, disappointed and angry; it was too much for Yunho to handle. He hated himself in that moment for making Changmin look like that.
mso-ansi-language:EN-US">“You know, Yunho,” the younger boy said as he started to dress himself quickly. He breathed in and out, trying not to cry. “I think you seriously need to fucking decide who you love, if Jaejoong or me! I can’t believe you just fucking ran to him because he called you! I can understand that you were worried about his sister, but you also gave him a ride to his house?! And, above all that you’re still fucking married to him so I’m the fucking third person in here!” Changmin snapped.
mso-ansi-language:EN-US">“Min, I swear I’m gonna divorce! I’m gonna talk to my lawyer so we can sign the papers soon! I’m just waiting this whole Sooyoung thing to pass a little, I swear.” Yunho defended himself. “Don’t ever think you’re the third here, Min. Please, I love you.”
mso-ansi-language:EN-US">“I-I don’t feel well and I need to think right now, Yunho,” Changmin declared as he grabbed his cellphone and wallet. “I’ll be at Junsu’s or Kyuhyun’s,” he said walking towards the door. “And don’t want to fucking see you unless you bring the divorce papers with you. You have 3 weeks, and if after those weeks I don’t hear from you, that would mean you chose Jaejoong and we’ll never see each other again.”
mso-ansi-language:EN-US">Yunho watched as Changmin closed the door and stayed there, thinking about what the fuck had just happened. He didn’t know what to do. He felt like suffocating, it was like something heavy was pressed against his chest and he couldn’t have enough air.
mso-ansi-language:EN-US">He started to cry, hoping that after some hours, Changmin would see things in his perspective because, he had been wrong, but Yunho never ever meant to hurt him.
mso-ansi-language:EN-US">Yunho grabbed his cellphone and dialed immediately the number of his lawyer. He knew that a paper wasn’t going to be enough to prove himself and his love for Changmin, but it was start.
mso-ansi-language:EN-US">He was decided: no matter what he was going to have Changmin back.
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A/N: Hi guys! I'm very very sorry for the extremely late update, but well, college stuff and well, the thesis is almost done now! :D Hope you remember this fic and that this chapter doesn't turn out to be as crappy as I think it is! :(
This will probably have around 2 or 3 chapters more and I'll be able to update regularly! Yay! :)
Anyways, hope you enjoy this and please do tell me what you think! :D
A/N2: I am obsessed with The Walking Dead, so, I was wondering what do you guys think. I was thinking that after finishing this story, I could start one HoMin based on TWD... Do you guys have ideas? Would you like SeKai in it as well? Other pairings? :P