A Bit Annoyed.
I haven't been on here in a while, but then again I never really have much of an update to discuss any way lol. My life is rather boring and mundane same old shit every day, so no reason for all the updates. Today was actually the first day that I was in a *really* good mood. Yaye! Nothing exciting happens to me anymore, but yeah it was a good day. I spent it babysitting my 5yr old cuz. He is just too cute! I love him to death. I have also been working on my Harry Potter fan-fics. I want to update all my older ones, and then start on my new ones;i it's just going to take alot of time & creativity lol, which I am sure I'll hit a writers block soon! I have been happy, and that's the first for me. I guess I'm not used to feeling this way so I kinda flip out haha.
Let's see Joe started talking to me again, and the first thing he said was that he wasn't going to pester me about going out with him, and eventually that's where our conversation leaded. I don't know why we can't be two normal people who have online conversations. I never once said anything that might give him the slightest inclination that I have romantic feelings for him, and I have told him different times that I don't. And when I do express my true feelings he goes all emo on my ass and tries to make me feel guilty. But it doesn't work, and then he calls me psyco bitch, but I dont' care. The man has many issues himself and it's rather too chaotic to put up with. I couldn't deal with all of his issues. Hell, I can't even deal with mine. lol. Finally after I told him that there was no chance of me going out with him, he had the audicity to suggest Friends With Benefits. OMG! I about died! If I wouldn't go out with him, what makes him think I would do the physical part? He does have a point that the physical aspect of a relationship is alot easier to accomplish then the emotional part. But still. I have actually confessed a lot of stuff to him, but only as friends, and I told him that. I just don't get why he is like so freakishly obsessed with me. He is not that ugly, and I know he could find someone, but I honestly don't think he wants to. I think he's still holding on to a small amount of hope that I will eventually give into him. Well, only in his dreams. I only done FWB with one other person, and I'm not saying it was a mistake, but it did make me want more, on the emotional part. I really began to fall for him, but not Joe. Joe is just creepy and an over-obsessive emo dude who has too many issues and he really needs to get over the fact that I don't like him and move on with his pathetic life. Yeah, I know I sound like a bitch, but he is really starting to push my buttons lol.
Anyways on a different note, Matt has some girlfriend and her pictures plastered all over her myspace. I don't see why he couldn't tell me that he was seeing someone while feeding me a bunch of bullshit that he really liked me. I don't know this girl at all, but I hope she treats him like crap, because Matt *knew* that I would have been good for him. Hell I have known him since high school and we were always friends. I even confessed to him that I liked him in H.S. but I was just too nervous to ever admit anything. I wasn't one to take part in all the HS drama. But I think I am pissing her off though, cuz I keep commenting on *his* pictures and leaving messages. I am not suprised she hasn't msged me back. Although I comment him constantly, I haven't gotten *any* type of response. That makes me wonder. Either he just ignores them and goes on or he is secretly thinking about me, and hopes his gf sees them (I hardly doubt that scenerio). But something is going on, and I just want him to realize that he gave the best damn thing away for some trashy whore! This note is to you Matt. I do hope you're happy, because I am just fucking fine! =)
Gah, I can be a bitch sometimes, but I love every damn second of it!! lol. I think I am going to go post my icons somewhere or make more. l
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-MONICA-.