That Creepy Joe Guy.
Damn!
He just won't seem to leave me alone. Yet again, he is haranging me to death about my personal life and what-not. That's none of his business. I am alone, because I chose to be alone. I don't want to be with him. If I did I would have hooked up with a few years a go. I even deleted him from my MYSPACE friends, and he still sends me creepy msgs, and calls my cell phone constantly, when I told him not to call me anymore. What the fuck is wrong with him? Why can't he take a hint and leave me alone. I don't care if I ever talk to him again. I just wish I could get rid of him. Now he is writing things about me and for me. I just want to scream! What am I supposed to do? I am losing my patience with this guy. He is offically creeping me out now. I wouldn't mind if a guy wrote something for me, but seriously not him. Maybe if he wasn't so fucking persistant then I could catch a break, but everytime I check my myspace there is like three msgs from him. I just wish he would give up already. I do admire the dedication, but seriously after a few years he should realize that I don't want anythign to do with him. It kills me that he won't just move on. THat's what I WANT him to do. He thinks it will break my heart if he found someone else. I would be more if he found someone else, and that bitch better be ready cause he is a bit creepy and not the good kinda creepy either. He really does scare me sometimes when he calls me and he's already buying me things, that he THINKS I LIKE!! Hell, he bought me a ROMANTIC book because he thought I could use the hope! Damn, I don't believe in love, and I will look elsewhere for hope. He is the type that tries to tell me what I need to do and that I need to improve my life. Hell, I know what I need to do with my life! I don't need some fucking stranger who pretends to know me to tell me how to live my fucking life. I will do what I want, and fuck him! I don't want or need his approval for my life, and he should keep his fucking bald head out of my personal life. It's my life, and if I don't want to be with him then he should just respect my wishes and let it go! There is no need for him to keep persisting me. HE thinks he fucking knows me inside and out, but he don't have the slightest clue as to who I really am and what I really like, only my closest friends know me that well. So he needs to stop acting like he knows me so fucking well! I hate people like that. He is always trying to get inside my head, and that isn't going to work. My friend said that maybe I'm a bitch to him because I secretly have desires for him, FUCK NO! If I want someone I won't deny it. I'll go for it. There's no secret about it, but with him it's completely the opposite. I want him to leave me alone. That's all I want. I don't care if I piss him off or hurt him anymore because one person can only take so much bullshit from someone and I have had plenty enough of his. I don't want anymore! He says that I am in denial of my attraction to him because it happened so unexpectedly! That has got to be the biggest bunch of bullshit I have ever heard. Yes, love happens unexpectedly, but I don't think being in love makes one feel like murdering the other person. That's not love. Love is reciprocated by both parties and in this case he loves me and I want to bury him ten feet in the ground! I want absolutely nothing to do with him, and he needs to quit trying to tell me how I fucking feel!! I'll tell him how I feel. I dislike him! I don't have any kinds of feelings for him at all, and it would put a pretty smile on my face if he just disappeared, but now we all can't get everything we wish for. Everytime he msgs me and I ignore him he just says I am in denial of my feelings because I'm scared. That's a lie. If I have feelings for someone I am not going to hide it, by acting like a bitch to them. That only drives them away. I was hoping to accomplish that with Joe, but somehow I just think it turns him on more. I don't want to do that. I want to drive him away....far away....perferably over a cliff.
I am tired of venting about him. I am going to bed.
MONICA