Bored & Ignored.
Another random, boring, useless entry, by me.
Let's see where to begin. There are so many things on my mind right now, and I really don't know how to put them into words. Today has sucked, just like every other day. But at least right now I am alone in my uncles house. haha.
I thought I was going to get to go to Amy's today, but she is all upset over her grades in school, and I completely understand. But she did tell me that we will deff hang out tomorrow. I hope we can go see Eagle Eye with Shia LeBeouf. I heard that was a good movie. So there's my plans for the weekend haha. I never od anything anymore. I wish I could get my life back in order and go back to school. I bet I am the only one who misses going to college. haha.
Right now I just want to scream and pull my hair out. About a month ago, I wrote a myspace msg to Matt confessing everything to him, but I have yet ot hear from him. If he doesn't want to talk to me then he should just tell me so instead of leaving me sit here and wonder what the hell is going on. I hate it. I don't care what type of response I get. I just want to know what he thinks; I know it isn't good, but still. He can tell me to fuck off if he wants, then at least I would know. I hate it because I can be doing something and the littlest thing reminds me of him and it pisses me off because then I can't quit thinking about him. I wish I would have never let him in. I never ever trust guys easily because I know nothing good can become of it, and I proved myself right. I do miss talking to him, but I will get over it, because I am used to being alone. Maybe that's the way I'm meant to be....alone. It's the only thing I ever known. I don't know what it's like to love someone or have someone love you back, but I do know what it's like to put your feelings out ther and then be rejected. It did disappoint me, but then again I didn't get my hopes up in the first place, because I guess I already knew what was going to happen.
Well, I am tired of rambling today. I am going to try and write another H/D story. I wish I had some plot bunnies lol.
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